This is completely and totally a pregnancy & exhaustion induced whine, you can skip it if you want.
I am completely and totally doubting my ability to do this motherhood thing. I know I've been doing it for 12.5 years, I know I did it as a single parent with a 1, 2.5 and 3.5 year old, I know I've done it with older kids & a new baby. But I don't know if I can do it anymore!
Last night ds (23 months) was in pain. I don't know WHAT it was. He cried and screamed from 11:30pm until 3:00am while I held him and tried everything I could to make him feel better. NOTHING helped. HOW in the world do I do this when the new baby is here and I'll be up nursing? The older kids are all grumpy today because they are tired from being woken up by ds's screaming. I'm exhausted and want to cry and run away. But ds needs attention, the older ones need me for stuff today, there isn't a single clean dish in the kitchen and when it comes down to it I'm in too much pain to run away because I can barely walk.
I just want to cry.
mama to the Girls (15, 14, 13) and the Littles (5, 3)