My husband and I aren't currently talking. I am way angry.
Yesterday I woke up not feeling very well at all. I was dizzy and just felt "off". It doesn't help that I needed immediately to carry my 20 month old down the stairs, have him on my hip as I make him breakfast, then volt both him, and my 9 month pregnant self over the barrier of our living room .
I have to wake up my husband for work, and he was a *bear* to try to get up. He finally ambles down the stairs to tell me that he isn't taking the bus as he normally will, but he is going to be driving to the train (thus taking our only car) because he feels like it.
I mentioned the fact that I wasn't feeling well which got a very generic "oh, sorry" before he went on his way.
Later on in the day he informs me that he set up a dinner meeting with his old boss, and he probably wont be home until 8. Normally he gets home at 5:30. I have an issue with this, because this meeting is for a job. A job that my husband does *not* want. But his old boss insist on him meeting face to face and the only time he can do it is in the evenings. Not even on the weekends, because his old boss works those too until 5.
I tried to point out to my "dh" that he wasn't really interested in the job anyway, and if he was.. shouldn't his old boss try to work around his schedule since he claims he wants him so bad? Still nothing, he is going. That's that. I am way pissed, to which he responses that he's "sad" but he understands. Yeah, I don't think he does because if he DID, I really don't think he would have pulled that.
. Which leaves me with the cranky 20 month old all day without a break (who's into hitting/pinching/biting phase)
. Not feeling well at all, having contractions on and off, and having no way to get anywhere for the whole day and night. We also had limited amount of food in the house to which my husband countered that he would bring something home to cook it. Which is *not* feasible as dinner wouldn't be ready until 8:30 and that is too late for the boy and I to eat. Since the boy goes to bed at 9. This is not news to my husband, the boy has been in this pattern for months.
Well, my husband finally rolls in at 8:45 last night. About 45 minutes after he said he would be home. No call, no nothing. And the first thing he does? He gets ON his laptop, completely ignoring our son. I told him he may want to spend some time with his kid which was just a suggestion. I took a few minutes to cool off, before I had to start the night time ritual. Getting his diaper/clothes ready, getting his sippy cup.. then taking him into the shower with me so we can both rinse off.
Even though I had to wake him up for work again, we still aren't talking. I feel like he takes me for granted way too much. That no matter how much I tell him how I feel, he doesn't get it. He just thinks I should take it in stride, without a whimper or complaint. That I should be able to solider through it. The reality of it is, if the tables were turned and HE was the one in this position.. He would be a freakin' mess and would not be able to take it at all.
I have to listen to his complaining when he takes the boy for a few hours on Sunday (compared to the several I take him when he sleeps in until 10-11am on Sunday) so I can sleep in about how hard it is. Something that I deal with 6 days a week . When I point out now he knows how it feels, he snaps back that its not a pissing contest. He still won't cut me ANY amount of slack, and it's frustrating.
I am sorry for this going on so long.. I just have a lot on my chest this morning and it really weights heavier than normal.