Oh, I'm so there with you on this one.
Dh is planning to get his V in the next 6 months or so. We just had our 4th baby, and feel like we're done. I wanted him to get his V done now rather than later and told him it would be sooo bad if we got pg with a 5th! He smiled, and said it would be okay! I would absolutely LOVE for it to be okay, and would likely plan on getting pregnant after this newest one turns one year old, but it's really not okay. We live paycheck to paycheck, and can't really afford more kids. I also get very little to no support at home. I've chosen to homeschool the kids, and although we're able to get some lessons in every day, the housework is suffering, and I'm stretched pretty thin with everything I've got on my plate. I'm really at my limit.
I love being pregnant and the anticipation of giving birth. I love all the attention my newborn is getting by strangers when we're out and about. I love getting to know her as a person and spending time with her. I will really miss this stage in my life, and it does make me sad to know that I will never again feel a new life growing inside of me. I have not been able to get rid of any pregnancy stuff yet, and imagine that will be a process. I suppose I should just focus all my energy on the four children I've been blessed with.
Good Luck to you!