I know I haven't been as active on this board as I was in the beginning, but I just wanted to let you know I'm out as our little bean did not make it.
I want to wish you ladies well as you begin the journey of expanding your families. The joy of pregnancy has unfortunately been a fleeting one for us as our little bean has not made it, but as my heart breaks I know that it will happen for us one day, just not in September as we had so hoped for. Now I wait for my body to let go of this baby, something it has not wanted to do and I realize I will have to force the issue of a D&C sooner rather than later as next week is a study break at school and I need to be able to move past this and look excitingly towards all the great opportunities that lay ahead as I graduate in April / May.
My hope is that this expecting group and MDC can be a great source of comfort and information for all of you as it has been for me over these last ten weeks and I hope you allow me the opportunity to peak in here and catch up when I can. Your yummy and delicious babies will give me hope as I struggle with questions about my ability to carry a baby to term.
The sadness I see in my husband's, mother's, father's, and siblings' eyes breaks my heart, but my support system is what has helped me these last few days as I slowly recognized that not all was well and I keep reminding myself that I am lucky on so many levels.
Thank you if you have read this far, this novel is more for me than anything else. It's part of my process and I leave you with this quote from Robert Munsch that has brought me so much comfort:
"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be."
Peace.
I want to wish you ladies well as you begin the journey of expanding your families. The joy of pregnancy has unfortunately been a fleeting one for us as our little bean has not made it, but as my heart breaks I know that it will happen for us one day, just not in September as we had so hoped for. Now I wait for my body to let go of this baby, something it has not wanted to do and I realize I will have to force the issue of a D&C sooner rather than later as next week is a study break at school and I need to be able to move past this and look excitingly towards all the great opportunities that lay ahead as I graduate in April / May.
My hope is that this expecting group and MDC can be a great source of comfort and information for all of you as it has been for me over these last ten weeks and I hope you allow me the opportunity to peak in here and catch up when I can. Your yummy and delicious babies will give me hope as I struggle with questions about my ability to carry a baby to term.
The sadness I see in my husband's, mother's, father's, and siblings' eyes breaks my heart, but my support system is what has helped me these last few days as I slowly recognized that not all was well and I keep reminding myself that I am lucky on so many levels.
Thank you if you have read this far, this novel is more for me than anything else. It's part of my process and I leave you with this quote from Robert Munsch that has brought me so much comfort:
"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be."
Peace.