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#1 of 25 Old 02-18-2008, 11:33 PM - Thread Starter
 
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Well, this has been one hard day. I went for my appointment this morning, and had an ultrasound, and the baby is no longer alive. It is only 9 mm, so about 6 1/2 week measurement, and there is no longer a heartbeat.

I have never gone through anything like this before. I just cried all morning, now I just feel numb.

I don't know how many of you remember, but 2 1/2 weeks ago, I had an ultrasound. My OB usually does them early to rule out ectopic, if you've had a lot of abdominal surgeries (and I have.) The embryo at that time measured very small. I was just hoping h/she would still make it! There was a heartbeat before, although it was very faint.

So now, there is a D & C scheduled for Wednesday. I get so incredibly sad and feel so awful when I see a baby right now, or pictures of babies and stuff. Which is dumb, I know, because we have four beautiful healthy children at home. But still, this is so heartbreaking.

I know time will heal this, but I feel so sad. We are going to try for one more in the spring or summer, or whenever my body is ready. On some level I feel afraid, very afraid, that we could be unable to have one last baby. But mostly I just feel sad.

I guess I'm gonna check out of the due date club soon. I'm wishing you all the best, happiest, healthiest and most wonderful pregnancies and births and babies! Stay healthy everyone!!! Hugs to all.
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oh momma! i'm so sorry for your loss.

Shannon Shaun - DH (and boyfriend since I was 16). my sweet Gwen 1/1/06 missing Dresden born sleeping 39 weeks 9/9/08 :, Delaney is scheduled to arrive 8/31/09 Odin&Loki :
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I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. It is not dumb to experience the heartache you have because you have four other children - this was your baby and was a great loss. I hope you are able to take the time to allow yourself to grieve and heal - hugs to you Mama!

We are a family of Jesus loving urban-nesters living the granola life in a not-so-crunchy city.  Our kids (DS 8, DS 7, DD 4) are home birthed and educated, and we just found out that a new Little will be added to our roost mid-April '14!

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I'm so sorry

Tina - mama to DD1 10yrs, DD2 5.5 yrs and DD3 22 mo and wifey to DH.
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I'm sorry. It is very hard I'm sure.


Hope you get back in a DDC soon and the D&C goes well ((Hugs)))
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I am so so sorry for your loss. I can say that the mamas in the pregnancy and birth loss forum are an amazing source of comfort during this impossible time.

so much love and hugs to you and your family mama.

kati , wife to josh , mama to j&d (7.31.07) marion (9.18.08), feeder of nanuq and gracie lou
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I am so sorry
I had the same thing happen last March, and as far as I can remember, that was the lowest point of my life thus far. I was depressed for the better part of 6 months
Please don't be afraid to reach out to people. PM me if you ever want to talk
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I'm not in your DDC, but I'm so very sorry

Newly single, chronically sleep deprived mama to my little wild thang wild.gif, born 11/17/12 

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I am soo very sorry, mama. s
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I'm so sorry.
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so sorry!
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I am so sorry.
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So sorry for your loss mama. I had a loss in April last year and I know how hard it can be. I will echo Katherine saying the loss group is amazing. Let yourself grieve mama.

AP crunchy homeschooling mama to Henning (1/4/03), Connor (7/1/05) and Elijah (9/21/08) Forever holding my 3 lost little ones in my heart.
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aw mama... im so sorry for your loss
i hope the d&c goes alright...sending you some love to get through this:
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Oh no. I'm so sorry, mama.

modern-mama to DS (5.16.05) and DD (9.11.08) and one more (GIRL!) coming in December
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Oh mama, hugs to you- I am so sorry for your loss...


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I am so sorry
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Oh, I'm sorry. * Jaime
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I'm so sorry. That is a hard place to be. Try to rest and let time heal you.
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I'm so sorry for your loss mama.
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Thank you for your wonderful support and warm thoughts, ladies. It really means a lot. Thank you so much.
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I'm sorry for your loss, mama.

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I wish there was something I could say to give you comfort. I'm so sorry you are going through this.
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So so so sorry.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself during this hard time. I wish you peace.
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