Warning - whiny rant ahead...
Goodness, I want to reply to all of you, but I can't. Literally. That arm pain I was experiencing isn't getting much better, even with 3x weekly chiropractic care. Of course, with all the relaxin being released by my body at this point, the adjustments don't last long before things start slipping back to their usual, incorrect positions. My neck and upper back are all out of whack, the doc is fairly certain I have a pinched nerve that is compressed all the way down my arm, and my thumb and forefinger are completely numb. I seriously cry myself to sleep most nights, the pain is just awful. I've stopped using any heat at all and just icing it as needed, but it's not working to well. If this keeps up, there is no way I'm making it through labor without an epidural. I've already tried using hypnobabies scripts to deal with the pain in my arm. Not working for me.
I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 3-7 weeks like this! I am so miserable. I have a ton of things that have to be done around the house and I know DH isn't going to do them. That's why I'm in this place to begin with - if he'd only done what I'd asked of him, I wouldn't have been trying to lift heavy boxes and wouldn't have yanked my arm and back as bad as I did. The kids room isn't done. I haven't done a single bit of sewing for this LO. The receiving blankets all have raw edges. Nothing is washed, not even the dipes. I am just so, SO ill-prepared for this babe, and I feel terrible for procrastinating and I'm so MAD at DH for not helping me out when I asked and it's all just landing in my lap at 35 weeks! GAAAHHHHH!!!
On a happier note I did have my MW appointment on Wednesday. Since DS came early, I consented to an internal, just to be sure nothing is happening down there. She said my cervix is soft, but still very much closed, and the LO is still a 'floater' and not engaged at all, though she is head-down. So it definitely looks like I'll be making it for at least another couple of weeks. SUCH a huge relief!