first of all, i couldn't get a teaching job this year b/c of being obviously pregnant. and dh works freelance, so there went insurance. still trying not to be resentful about THAT turn of events. i finally get approved for state insurance, and coverage doesn't kick in until nov. 1. K TELLS me which plan to choose for maximum coverage. Should only owe $500. now, 3 weeks (if that) before i have this child, she tells me they will only cover part of the contract. leaving us a balance of $3500. and gee, they usually require a down payment of $4500. are you freakin kidding me???!!! you're dropping this on me NOW?!
dh works freelance. i work temp. we're going to be lucky if we have enough saved for me to take 3 months maternity leave. no work, no paycheck. not to mention the fact that i still haven't pinned down a pediatrician. and childcare so i can go back to work? haven't even started. can't afford to take time off work to go find stinking childcare, which i also can't afford so that's just a mom guilt trip waiting to kick in. on top of the one i already have b/c the poor kid has the hiccups from me getting so stressed and upset.
loving motherhood already, let me tell you....
thanks for listening.
I hope it all works out.
SAHM to 6.5yo DS and 4yo DD. PCOS with two early m/cs. Married 8 yrs. Certified birth doula, writer, editor.
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On a side note, I know how it feels to feel guilty working when your child is at daycare. We didn't have to do it until dd was about 18 months, but even while dh was taking care of her and I was working, it was hard for me. I'm only working halftime stating at the beginning of next year which is a major financial cut for us, but I can't take the guilt any longer. But the $$$ is always a worry.
Just think, in 3 weeks you will have a beautiful baby. Things will work out one way or another. Best wishes and rainfalls of $$ to you!
Kelly, married to the love of my life, Den , DD1 5/07 , 11/07, DD2 10/08 , DDS 8/10, expecting our next blessing this winter!