I am very grateful I have last this long(36w), but I am going bonkers. I am soooo tired of my body contracting and the cramping is increasing. I want to feel normal again, I want to drive my car(haven't driven in 2-1/2 weeks), zip my coat all the way up, wear my pre-pg clothes, I want to get out of my house and feel like part of my community, etc. My bedrest has been lifted, but I haven't changed things much. I walked through a grocery store the other day, I have been using one of the scooters, and it was such a work out. My mom and I were going to "go out" yesterday morning(I was so excited), but that was thwarted when cramping started. Grr....
I was dilated and effaced for 1-1/2 weeks then gave birth with dd. It has been about 2-1/2 weeks now since I have found out that I am dilated and effaced. Sometimes, I feel in control since I have been on bedrest and kept this baby in, but I know that baby will come when he/she is ready.
Oh and I slept like crap last night and I am just waiting for DH or my mom to wake up to care for DD so I can go back to bed. DD did not go to sleep until almost 10pm, she is usually asleep at 8pm then she came into my bed, (I am sleeping in the guest room) at 6am. I went to sleep after 10 and have been awake since 3:30am. UGH!!
I guess this has been a bit of a rant...I know the baby will be here soon, I will feel better, and everything will be fine. Just hard waiting.
Mindfully parenting DD 8/04 & DS 11/08, Human beings are the only mammals who do not nurse their offspring to full term.