My husbands step mother called me 2 weeks ago saying she'd like to throw a baby shower with close family and friends. She was originally thinking after the baby arrived, which is why I guess she didn't mention it until recently. But the idea of postpartum me, new baby, and many hands gives me anxiety. I told her no thanks but she continued to insist...even though my due date at the time was 3 weeks away. It isn't like I haven't been pregnant for 9 months, why now? I relented and said if she wanted to throw one I would perfer it to be before baby arrives. She chose a date just a few days before my due date. I told her specifically if I had the baby before then then I wouldn't be at the shower. I sound completely ungrateful, but feel a little pushed into it.
I am now worried if I do have the baby before next Sat I will be expected to show up with my tiny bundle.
Am I weird? I feel like a selfish freak, but also know my postpartum self and feel I need to respect that rather than give into the desires of relatives. I will be seeing them all once baby arrives anyway...just not all at once, which is what I can't handle w/little one in tow.
I need encouragement...and sleep!