I'm so sorry, Beth.. Sending love and good thoughts to your family.
Things are very gradually improving here. DD's GERD is mostly under control with medication, but she's still just a very colicky, high-maintenance baby. Lots of crying, but we're figuring out her different cries and sometimes we can help her, sometimes I know all I can do is hold her and let her get it out of her system. She's getting really strong, almost 10 weeks and I don't think it'll be too long before she's holding her head up on her own. DD outgrew her newborn clothes a couple of weeks ago.. they barely fit to begin with so I knew it wouldn't be too long.
DD's at daycare full-time now and I'm back in school. She gives them a bit of a hard time, especially with feedings, but she's always smiling when she gets there in the morning so I'm not concerned that I did the wrong thing by sending her there so young. I'm much more sane and able to care for her better since we have regular time apart and I have regular interactions with other adults.. I felt like my brain was turning to mush being stuck at home for so long!
I wrote my birth story last week. Not posting it yet.. it was very cathartic just to get it out, but I'm not ready to share it yet. I think I'm going to donate all my pregnancy books to the local library, for some reason I feel like it'll help me get some closure and put this whole thing behind me. I had my Mirena IUC put in last week and that helped too.
I feel much closer to DH since DD's birth.. we've had some difficult conversations, but I'm getting a lot better at being open and communicating with him. I feel very fortunate to have him, we met a year ago on Valentine's Day and things have been so crazy and so fast, but I have no regrets whatsoever about us and he feels the same way
We're both pretty overwhelmed with the whole parenting thing, but I think keeping our relationship strong is going to make things a little easier.