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#31 of 56 Old 05-15-2008, 02:01 PM
 
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I don't know quite what to say...I am so sorry for you loss.

for you sweet little one
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I'm so sorry

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Oh, Mamaterra! I'm so, so sorry.

You are such a supportive, encouraging and positive force on here, and it just breaks my heart that we can't do anything for you right now.

Sending you much healing, love and support.

This.

I am so so sorry you are going through this Mama.
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Thank you for your warm wishes and hugs.

I keep lurking on this board because I don't know where else to go. I have been coming here daily, a couple times a day, since I POAS and I don't know where else to go.

I know how uncomfortable a loss makes other mamas feel and I certainly don't want to be that source of discomfort.....but I don't know where else to go.

I've ordered God to change this....to make my babys' heart start beating again. He has the power, he can make miracles happen whenever he wants. He can make this different.

I think I have convinced myself that the Dr. is wrong and I am going to make him look EVERYWHERE tomorrow before he induces me. This just can't be....

I am scared.....I don't want to go through the merciless, heartless labour that comes with induction....I don't want to see the blood because it means that this is over. I keep begging my husband to do something, to make this baby stay.

Mostly, I don't want to see my baby outside of my body...it is too early for that yet. I want to smell his head, that fresh newborn smell as I nurse him for the first time. I want to put an ornament on the tree that says "Babys' First Christmas" as he marvels at all of the Christmas lights and I unwrap his Christmas presents for him...I don't want to let go of that dream.

I don't want to let go.....
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I just saw this I am so very sorry for your loss
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Mamaterra, you're always welcome here. You're not alone.

I'm so sorry for what you've been through in the last year, and you'll be in my thoughts.
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Big hugs and lot's of prayers for you hun! You are always welcome here and never forgotten

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Oh my gosh! I am so sorry! I just can't believe it. I am so sorry and I know that is probably of no help I just don't know what else to say. I will keep ou in my thoughts.

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(((Hugs))) I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. Take all the time you need to grieve for this little one.

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mamaterra, my thoughts are with you and your little angel in this terrible time.
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Mamaterra you are definatly welcome here anytime. You are a wonderful mama and my heat is breaking for you! have the doc check for you. I am praying for you and your lo. I wish there was something I could do or say that wold ease your pain.


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Rosemary, you will always be welcome here. I too have been wondering if perhaps somehow,, some way that the doctor is wrong. I'm praying too for your miracle. I know they do happen. I would also have the doctor check and recheck tomorrow. Don't feel like being here will make us uncomfortable. Or that commenting will bother anyone here. You have been such a joy to have here. I will think of your baby bean every day for the rest of my pregnancy. I already have been thinking of you daily after reading of your losses last year and everything you have gone through this time. I so wish that you look in there tomorrow and all is well. I don't mean to get your hopes up unneccessarily, but I'm really hoping the doc was wrong. Big hugs to you.

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I'm so sorry to hear about your little one, Mamaterra--I am holding you and your family in the light.
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Mama, I just saw this and was so shocked and saddened. I am so so so sorry that you have to be going through this again. Everything seemed so strong and good - I can only imagine how devastated you must feel. Please know that our hearts are with you and check back in tomorrow and let us know how you are doing. You have been an inspiration and I can only hope that somehow things will work for you and you will get the child you want and deserve.

Take care of yourself and reach out for whatever help you need. We are here.
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I am so sorry

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Oh Mamma, I'm so sorry. There aren't really any comforting words that can be said to make this better. Know that you are in all of our thoughts as you travel this road. My tears today are for you.
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(((((((Hugs))))))) I'm so sorry.
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I am so sorry mama, I wish you peace

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love and light to you ~Mamaterra~
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I'm so sorry.
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I am not in your DDC, but I wanted to stop in here and tell you how horribly sorry I am. I can only imagine what you are going through and I really hope that today a miracle happens and you see that babies heartbeat. I just isn't fair. It shouldn't happen. It is just wrong. I am so sorry hun You and your LO will be in my thoughts.

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How heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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I'm so sorry, I don't even know what to say



Wishing for some comfort for you and your family.
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Oh NO, Mammaterra, I am crying for you.
I'm praying for the doctor's ERROR, and for a miracle for you.
We are here for you, whatever the outcome.
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I'm so very sorry. It isn't enough to say, but all that I have.

You ARE welcome here. So many of us, unfortunately, know how you feel. I have lost 8, and so I truly truly understand.

Hugs.

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I am sick with this pain, this hurt, this totally feeling of uselessness. I wish I could do something, say something that would lift your hurt from your heart and the questions from your soul.
My words are disgustingly inadequate, I'm apalled and crushed by this.

I'm here for you, for whatever you want. Anytime.
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