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Old 05-15-2008, 12:50 AM - Thread Starter
 
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Four hours ago, I found out that my baby died.

I am devastated and numb. I keep shaking my head telling myself to wake up from this nightmare....I mean, its' got to be a nightmare right....this kinda shit doesn't happen in real life?!?

As I took my shot of heparin this morning, nothing can be done until Friday morning. We have to pray that I don't start to miscarry before then because I could bleed out.

The OB is speechless. He was positive that this little one would be the one. Everything was perfect at the 8 week u/s, I was just measuring 2 days behind. But apparently, this childs' heart stopped beating about 3 days later.

I need a volunteer to take over the spotlight duties and I will be withdrawing from the bead swap.

I don't know what to say anymore....it just doesn't seem to matter.

Sorry.
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Old 05-15-2008, 12:52 AM
 
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I'm so sorry.

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I'm so sorry, mama.


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Oh Mamaterra - I'm so so sorry
I have no words for the devastation you must be feeling. Love and healing vibes aplenty for you :

One gorgeous solstice babe 12/08, two smitten mothers - mothering consciously with conscience and compassion. Birth & Postnatal Doula. Student Midwife. Expecting #2 November '12.

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I'm so so sorry

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Oh no honey I'm so so very sorry.

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Old 05-15-2008, 01:56 AM
 
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Oh my god mamaterra. You are incredibly brave to continue on in your love and desire to have another baby after such loss. I had no idea of your story until now. You have been such a shining light in this DDC. I wish you peace and love tonight.

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Oh, Mamaterra! I'm so, so sorry.

You are such a supportive, encouraging and positive force on here, and it just breaks my heart that we can't do anything for you right now.

Sending you much healing, love and support.

If my computer allowed candle smileys, there would be one here for your sweet babe.

(I will take over the spotlight thread, don't worry about that particular thing)

Much love to you,
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I am so sorry.

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I am sick with this pain, this hurt, this totally feeling of uselessness. I wish I could do something, say something that would lift your hurt from your heart and the questions from your soul.
My words are disgustingly inadequate, I'm apalled and crushed by this.

I'm here for you, for whatever you want. Anytime.
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Old 05-15-2008, 02:20 AM
 
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Yes, what a nightmare. I wish I could wake you. Alas, all I can offer are my heartfelt condolences and wishes for strength and gentleness to yourself. Take care.

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Old 05-15-2008, 03:47 AM
 
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I'm so, so sorry. Thinking of you and wishing you peace and healing.
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Old 05-15-2008, 05:25 AM
 
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I'm sorry too. The words seem so useless but they are all I have. I'm sorry.

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I don't have anything to say that would adequately express how sorry I am and how much I wish that it was just a nightmare. I'm holding you and your family in the light.

Walking in the light with DH, DD (11/08), DS (4/10) , four dogs, and one insouciant cat.
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Old 05-15-2008, 10:18 AM
 
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I'm very sorry for your loss.

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I'm so sorry.
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Old 05-15-2008, 10:22 AM
 
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I'm sorry for your loss.

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Old 05-15-2008, 11:36 AM
 
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NO NO NO NO NO !!!!!! Oh mama this is terrible I am so so very sorry. Please take care of yourself.

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I'm so sorry
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NNNNOOOOOOOOO! This just completely breaks my heart. I was really believing that you were in this for the long haul. I have prayed for you baby. I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do or say. There are just no words.

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I'm so sorry mama. I hope you remain safe throughout this nightmarish process. I know how much that hurts.

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I am so sorry. Your presence here has really been a blessing. Sending good, healing thoughts your way.

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Sending peace. I'm so sorry.
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Oh no!!! I am so sorry ... I don't know what else to say. If I was shocked and horrified to read this, I can't even imagine how you feel.
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I am so very sorry.

Perpetually breastfeeding or pregnant ENFP mom to a lot of kids...wife to a midwestern nice guy...living in tropical paradise...pink cats and homebirths rock!

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I am really sorry. I have no words to console you other than I'm sorry you had this happen.
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I am so sorry for your loss.



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