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#601 of 849 Old 10-25-2008, 03:03 AM
 
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Sage. I don't have any experience or advice to offer you, but I'm thinking of you.
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Thanks Shelby. The comfort and support that I've been given here has been whats carried me through these last few months. Your words mean so much more than you know.
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I am pissed off. About all of this. I told the nurses when I first got into the hospital that my GD test came back high, but that the numbers I was getting continued to be low.
No one checked my blood sugar for 5 days. Normally my readings were very low and on Sunday it was 6. The nurse was all happy about it even tho I told her, thats quite high for me and my usual readings. Then nothing again until Tuesday when my hubby brought my glucose monitor into the hospital and my first reading was 7.8. According to the nurse/dietician who spoke with me in the hospital, after taking the bedrest and such into consideration my numbers needed to stay between 3.6 and 5.6. I know 7.8 isn't very high, barely high enough to cause concern really. But thats the lowest I've been since that test. Now the LOWEST I can get is 8.6, and thats happened once. My readings are mostly above 10. It doesn't matter what I eat.

I am so thirsty I could drink a bathtub every hour and still be thirsty. Having to drink all this water is making me have to get up to pee every 15 mins and that pain is killing me. I hurt so badly, my bones just grind and grind everytime I move at all. They sent me home with oral morphine tablets. It says to take one twice a day. I know from my nightmare year with pancreatitis that one doesn't do a damn thing. With my pancreatitis I had to take 4 at once to even touch the pain. I took two last night and they did nothing, at all. I took another one about an hour later and it too did nothing. I spent the whole night crying and trying to muffle my screams in bed while I move my bones that feel like they're about to shatter. I got no sleep. To make matter worse our 7 year old couldn't sleep and came to sleep with us. We have a king sized bed, but for comfort my daughters sleep WITH me, and all last night I had to continually wake up my husband to move her so that I could move.
My numbers are still high today. I'm thinking that they've probably been climbing since Sunday since thats really when the nausea and shaking started. Lucien is big, at my last u/s he's measuring a good two weeks ahead of his growth. He's hurting me when he moves, he's squished in there and braces himself to push himself around.

I'm hurting. These stupid morphine pills aren't helping at all. What am I supposed to do? Try four of them??? NO. I can't do that. I haven't slept in three days again. The last night at the hospital was bad, the floor was insanely busy and loud and because of all the contractions and Luciens pushing and size, my bones just hurt all the time. The cartilage supporting my bones is burning. I feel so sick. I don't know if its just from the stress or from the fact that I can't get my blood sugar below 10.

I'm angry and sad. I want to have a bath but I'm scared because the last twice I've tried, I've hurt myself really bad and I really can't take any more pain right now.

I just needed to vent. I feel like such a drag to my husband. I call him every 20 mins for more water.
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Oh, Sage. That sounds just awful. Are you going to be induced at any point or just wait till it happens? I know you've had some labor that they've stopped, but if that doesn't happen again, will you wait all the way till you're due? You are a brave, strong woman. I'm amazed at what you've endured. Keep up the good work and remember that the pay-off is soon to come.

Jessica, mama to Emma, 7, Mattie, 5.5 and Lilly, 3 and someone new this Halloween-ish.

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I'll be induced for sure by 37 weeks. On Monday tho I've got to talk to my OB. I'm certain Lucien's had a growth spurt this week because I feel like I'm carrying around a 30 lb medicine ball. Its solid, all the time.
My first daughter was 10 lbs and she barely made it out, I can't do bigger than that. If he's bigger I will insist on being induced earlier to avoid the c/s.

At my 32 week u/s his abdomen was in the 87th percentile, which means he's big. His leg bones were in the 90th percentile, which means he's long.

I feel so weak. I feel so guilty for wanting him out. I feel like such a strain on my family. I am, the weakest link.

Thank you for your kind words and support. Really.
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Sage (hugs) i hope you can get some rest tonight. plus i said a pain free weekend, you are totally not living up to your end of this deal.

maybe that is why i keep on having contrax every 4 mins. without fail. but hey i am a little glad that they have a pattern to them and they started out more slowly today instead of all the sudden intense. I am still holding out hope that they start up a bit more and we can have a baby soon.
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Sage honey, you are the STRONGEST link, because you are the link carrying the load. What does your hubby have to do? Get you water every 20 minutes? Is that causing him pain? Your daughters miss you but will be all right, Lucien will be all right, YOU are the one who needs help. You are the link under pressure, they just need to hold you up. (and if your husband is feeling like a burden tell him to go buy you a huge ass water bottle)

Can you go back into the hospital? Is their rush over? Your blood sugar needs to come down. Can you ask to see an endocrinologist? At sustained levels over 10 I would take insulin, at least until the glyburide starts to work (if it will) That kind of thirst and nausea is due to the diabetes, you need to bring your blood sugar down. What are you eating? Try a meal of egg salad (or tuna salad or similar) no bread, just put it on greens. See if you can get through a day with just really low to no carbs and no artificial sweetners (alas they sometimes raise insulin resistance) Honestly if I were you at this point I'd aim for 36 week induction, can they do an amnio to see if his lungs are mature? Do NOT feel guilty, If he is mature enough to take the outside environment, he needs to be out because he needs a healthy mommy for the next 18 years more than he needs another week or two inside.
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I was talking to a friend of mine, she had to take insulin for her last three weeks as well. She said she's sure they'll put me on insulin tomorrow.

I checked my blood sugar as soon as I woke up. It was 8.6. My hubby is making me bacon and eggs right now. I'll see how today goes. Yesterday I ate tuna, chicken wings, hard boiled eggs, babybel cheese, sausage, and atkins chilli.

Erica, thank you for your constant words of support and love. You are an amazingingly kind and caring woman, I feel blessed to have met you here.
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I think the glyburide is finally working. I just checked again an hour after eating and its 8.3. Still not great, but better than 10!
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Whoo hoo! (and you are making me blush, stop that )
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I had a short nap. Now all my kids are home and they're driving me nuts. How is that possible? I've been awake for 10 mins!

I have no idea what happened earlier, but it was awful. At about 2 ish I checked and I was 8.6. Good, not bad. But within 15 mins or so I started shaking so badly, so badly I couldn't hold the phone to call my husband. I checked my BS and it was 5.5. I sat here, vibrating and tried to calm down. 5.5 is supposed to be good! All the sudden I felt like I had been flash fried. I was on fire. I have no idea what my temp was but it felt like something was crawling on my side but it was sweat. My sheet was wet where I'd been sitting on it. I checked my BS again and it was 5. Is it supposed to come down that fast??
I used our phone and called my hubby to bring me a snack. He brought me a pb&j sandwich. The bread was weight watchers and the PB and J were Atkins. My BS lept to 11.3. Although I felt better, I knew 11.3 was not good. I stopped shaking and sweating. And got really sick. I've been at 9.9 every since.
Is it normal for numbers to go up and down like that? I know, things will prob settle down when I see the dietician and nurse tomorrow, but man, today its sure got me on a yo-yo. Are the diarhhea and naseas side effects of BS staying so high? I cannot move fast enough to accomate either of those illnesses without causing myself massive pain. I had no idea this could get worse.
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They could be blood sugar effects or they could be side effects of the glyburide. I'm thinking that maybe glyburide is not working for you and just doing insulin might be better. Talk to them and see what they say. Also have them make sure you don't still have the infection (or a rebound infection) infection can cause those symptoms including the erratic blood sugars.
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Erica, do you think your family would mind if I stole you? I'll set you up all nice and comfy over here... we live on a mountain, surrounded by forests.

I'm..........................

thats it.
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would all this that's been going ok with me in the last couple days cause Lucien to be less active? He hasn't moved much today.
He's moving very slowly, almost like he's lethargic. Usually he's very active throughout the day.

I'm probably just freaking myself out. Cracking under the pressure, goin looney tunes.
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Sage, I think anyone on the kind of rollercoaster you're riding would be going loony toons right now. I hope you get this figured out--it sounds miserable. Also, after you deliver Lucien, can you send Erica over to my house? It's nice and sunny where I live and I promise she would be comfortable!
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I don't know anything about gestational diabetes, but I'm sorry to hear it's been such a struggle. I agree that asking for a 36 or 37 week induction at this point might not be so bad. If your baby is big and they can check to make sure his lungs are mature, it seems like it might be safer to have him out and you recovering.

Selena, how are you holding up in these last days?

Everyone else?

I'm doing okay. It was a beautiful fall weekend here. Glorious colors, sunny, cool air. I'm finally 28 weeks and last week we had a negative FFN so we're easing up a little on bed rest. No exercise, no heavy housework, plenty of rest - but a little walking here or there feels really good. Tonight I cooked dinner for the first time in a few weeks - steak, carmelized onions, sweet potatoes, asparagus and red wine. Asher, my almost 4 year old, told me it was the best dinner ever while his brother Micah smeared the potatoes on his face like a mask. Makes me excited to get back to normal life in another month or so. Hopefully we'll have more good, or at least stable news, at the perinatologist on Tuesday.

One of my best friends - who is an amazing photographer - has agreed to photograph our birth. I'm really excited about this and it makes me a little more motivated to try to keep little boy in there until at least 34-36 weeks...
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shelby, you are very sweet. I share all good stuff and play well with others. Next summer I'll host a BBQ/ Pool party. You can all bring your families and hang out here for a few days. I'm an amazing cook and your hubby's and mine can chill on the decks while the chiddlers play in the pool and the babes snooze in the shade.
Sara your weekend sounds so lovely! I'll pretend it was mine, if that's ok with you. You are much braver than I to allow any kind of photography equipment in the delivery room! I have a strict "no pictures" rule, the only person saying cheese will be Lucien. Who woke up briefly, by the way. He's quiet again now.
He's freaking me out being this calm, it's quite unlike him.

My husband came up to bring me some tea. He said I'm very pale and have dark circles under my eyes. I must look bad because he stood beside me for a few mins asking me if I want some water, or anything else. He offered to go get me anything.
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Well if your sugar's have been on a roller coaster that could make him a little exhausted if he's been really active because of it. I'd do kick counts though and if they aren't reassuring go in...with anyone else I'd probably say "oh he's fine" but you've been having soooo much trouble I think I'd just be extra cautious. I know that is probably not what you wanted to hear.

And I'm very flattered by the way but I am NOT so fun to be around lately in real life, I'm grumpy and grouchy and snippy, plus it takes me three days sometimes to form a coherent sentence...my baby ate my brain too! Barbecue sounds good though!

Sara I'm : that you made it to 28 weeks! Yay yay yay! I read your post btw on one of the parenting forums and its funny how much Asher sounds like my Japhy, doubly funny because they have the name in common. (what is Asher's middle name?)

Selena you've gotten to that point that every time you don't post for 24 hours I'm going to think you are giving birth I hope its true!
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No unfortunately no baby yet. The prodromal labor continues. They only day i didn't have too many contrax was thursday. I am constantly looking for signs that true labor might be coming. softer BM, maybe? nausea, maybe? feeling like i am getting the flu, maybe? change in CM, maybe?

I am totally over thinking and driving my self crazy. I am not sleeping well and that isn't helping the exhaustion from trying to deal with these contrax day in and day out.

anyways i am going to get ready to go to coffee i will be back later.
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Okay now that i am back from coffee i will finish my post.

Sara, Yay for 28 weeks!!!

Sage, i am so coming to your party!!! I hope you feel a bit better today, and i would call your ob/ dietitian about your crazy blood sugars.

Erica- i promise i will post when i have some action that looks promising and definitely when this LO comes.
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ok so some days Sage posts like 15 times in a row today is my day for that.

the contrax are starting up again today, (i usually make it to around 4 or 5 before they start) and i have been have very soft BMs since middle of the night and now i am throwing up. God, just let it be today. I feel yucky and tired and ready. vent over. i feel like this guy. pale, yucky, tired and all over done and frustrated.
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vibe vibe vibe, baby tonight or tomorrow...vibe vibe vibe
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update, contrax continue even after a nap, they are slowly increasing in intensity and i am having a hard time getting comfortable. this is different from the other contrax that come sudden and strong. I am not going to time them yet, because then i focus on them too much. staying hopeful.
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Selena I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!!

Thats it. I'm switching OB's. Mine is an idiot. I went in for my appt at the diabetes clinic. I didn't sleep at all last night, tho I did drain my body of all moisture crying all night. My bones are becoming super sensitive to position. I used to have to move every 20 - 30 mins during the night because my bones would start to ache, but moving was very painful and settling into the new position would take a few mins, during which I sit fully tensed trying to breathe through the pain. Now I can only last about 10 mins in each position and my bones aren't settling in before I have to move yet again. Each night is an exercise in how much hell I can take.

Anyways, I went to my appt. I saw the Diabetes Educator. She's an RN and a diabetic specialist. She took one look at my recordings and said "oh dear, I'm sorry sweetie but with numbers like these we have no choice but to put you on some insulin. Its clear that the glyburide isn't working, it works for some but not for others, you are one of the others." So she taught me how to load the pen and all about the different kinds of insulin and about how your body uses it and so on. The appt took about an hour and a half. An hour and a half of sitting. I was nearly crying by the end of it. She suggested I go up to mat to have a NST done to check on Lucien, because he's been so quiet lately.
She also said that when I get up there that I should ask the nurses to call my OB so he can call in the prescription for insulin.

I got up there and talked with the nurses, I also asked for some demerol while I was there so that I could try to get some rest for a bit. They ran the NST and Luciens heart rate is good, but he is much quieter than usual, still. They called my OB about the insulin and the demerol and I had to wait for TWO hours for him to call back. He just showed up instead. He looked at my numbers and asked me how long I'd been taking the glyburide for, I told him since Friday. He said "ok, start taking it twice a day then. And I'll get you some pain meds, we'll just have to put your baby into the NICU for a few days because he'll probably be addicted to pain meds, but thats ok. I'm not going to induce you, we'll wait for natural labor" and he turned and walked out before either myself or my hubby could say anything.

WHAT?!?!? First of all, its clear the glyburide isn't working so why would taking TWO of them work better??? Isn't keeping my blood sugar in a safe zone important to him? And whats with the refusal to induce? Why would we keep doing this to not only me, but my son, if its perfectly safe to take him about a couple of weeks early?? AND I checked with the other OB and several nurses about the likelihood of Lucien becoming addicted to demerol. They all told me that his addiction would follow my addiction. And since I don't use the pain meds for pleasure, since I use them once a day its clear I'm not abusing them. To make me feel better the third time I asked the other OB, she set me up on a NST to monitor his reaction after I'd been given my nighttime meds. Nothing changed, it didn't affect his movement or his heartrate. The first signs of fetal addiction would be a physical response to the drugs in question, and Lucien doesn't respond to them. It felt like my OB was trying to make to a dig at me when he brought that up this time.
He was dismissive and almost neglectful. He hasn't even suggested to me that I make any appt to see him in his office again. My husband said it seemed to him that my OB didn't remember my history, or anything we'd talked about previously regarding induction.

I deserve proper care. I'm going to find it elsewhere. I just worry that it might be uncomfortable in the hospital, when I do go into labor, with or without induction. My OB is one of the busiest OB's and they're a pretty tight bunch. I met another OB a few years ago, she works out of a nearby town, she's not a part of the "group" and she is an amazing OB. I'm going to call her office in the morning and find out how to go about seeing her.
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Vibes to Selena!!!

Sage, your ob and the doctor I saw yesterday can go take a long walk off a short plank together, as far as I'm concerned. Good luck with the new ob!
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Ugh i don't know what i would do with that ob, i already virtually smacked that Peri that was mean to you. Maybe i will virtually push that UAV out a window. Good luck with the other OB, i hope they can get you in.

AFM- still hanging and contracting, but i doubt it will be today.
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Sometimes it is hard to believe some of the OBs and perinatologists out there actually went to school for a LONG time to work with pregnant moms and babies. Like they really wanted to help or something...or maybe somewhere along the way they forgot why they went into medicine in the first place.

I don't know. I've had such excellent doctors this pregnancy. I've also had to deal with some terrible ones. The same is true with nurses. I'm really, really hoping that I go into labor on a Wednesday or a weekend because then one of my good friends will be my L&D nurse. That matters more than the OB, because she would be with me the whole time anyway.
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Selena I hope this is it! Good luck, good vibes...oommmmmm

I already answered on the GD thread but Sage your doctor sucks and has for a while. Switch to someone else if you can. If that doc from the other town can't take you what about the one that you saw in the hospital that was good? I wouldn't worry at all about how he will treat you, seems like he's unlikely to even remember you...grrrr.

I am really hating this pregnancy. I'm hormonally all messed up...blood sugar just being nutty, sob fests every other day, anxiety about nothing at all keeping me up and night and the baby is NOT turning and now I am both starting to worry that he can't and I'm sore from him kicking me in the cervix. Between him not wanting to turn around and the sugar issues I'm scared I'm going to end up with this super managed medical birth and a c-section and I'm terrified of a c-section. I feel like as difficult as Japhy's birth and pregnancy was, at least I felt successful and that was very healing, this is awful and I just feel like my body is failing me again and it sucks. Plus how can a happy baby come out of this emotional mess? If the way I feel is any clue this is going to be an angry grumpy baby who never sleeps either.

Where is Christy?
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selena, keep us posted if you can!!
sage, that other ob sounds oh so much better. i hope you can get in with her and that you guys are on the same wavelength. i cant imagine going thru this with a crappy ob or peri. it would be just miserable. its never too late to switch to someone good.
aviva, there is time for babe to change. i wonder if you should have another talk with your docs about your fears of the c section, etc. really make it clear what your wishes and expectations are. it might make you feel better to just get it all out again and i think you cant have that talk too often before delivery.
33 weeks this week, yay! we're getting there, ladies.
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Well I ended up having some wine and trying to sleep. still having soft BMs & more vomiting. I am still having contrax but after a night of horrible sleep I am not sure I want it to be today anyways. I tossed and turned all night and ended up taking 2 baths throughout the night.

Erica. there is still time for baby to turn

Holly yay for 33 weeks
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