Well I have an appt on friday. Its with a Kaiser doctor who is a member of the International Urogynecology Association, and the American Urogynecology Society. We'll see how that goes. I did a google search to try to find pelvic floor physical therapists in my area, and am not coming up with much... it found some local physical therapists, but it doesn't look like they are pelvic floor specialists, but I'll call and find out.
klothos, I *wish* I could get it fixed soon... my Dh thinks I'm WAY over reacting right now (which is pissing me off! He says I can't know if its serious, but when I can FEEL my cervix with my fingers buldging OUT of my vagina, that's *&^% serious!), but from what I've researched, surgery repair has a 12 week recovery, where you can't lift more than *5* pounds! And even the great hospitals have a 30% failure rate! And after the recovery no lifting more than 20!!
So if I do decide on any of that, it'll be after I'm finished with children, so many many years down the road most likely... the pessary will help halt more prolapses (and should ease my symptoms), and I can alter my lifestyle to keep it from becoming worse (not lifting really heavy things), and physical therapy will help some, but if the prolapse is really as bad as I think, it won't "fix" it.
I think the main thing that's getting to me is how this is affecting my sex life. All this time I just thought I had to heal, and nope, its this prolapse. I was a very sexual being before Orion's birth, and now, nope. I may *want* it, but its so frustrating to not be able to enjoy what I used to enjoy so much, I just shut down. And Dh makes jokes about how little sex he gets, and this was BEFORE I discovered the prolapse. So on top of this now I feel broken, my self esteem is in the toliet, and I really wonder if Dh is going to stay with me if our sex life is just going to be like this forever. Of course he says yes, don't worry, but still. I can't help thinking it. I wish friday would hurry up and get here so I could really see exactly what's going on, and so when I come home with a "professional opinion" Dh will stop treating me like a hypocondriac <sp sorry>. Like I can't figure out for myself that my parts are dramatically WRONG right now. *Sigh*