Regarding St Johns wort while nursing, I've taken formulas containing it while nursing and not worried about it. I've never come up with anything credible about not taking while bf. I recommednd checking into the Essential Fatty Acids, esp fish oil (good quality) as well as things like chiropractic, massage, etc. Also excersize which is a great antidepressant.
As long as we are airing dirty laundry, i have to share part of my experience with depression.
As long as i remember i have had cyclical depressions. As a child (young) i remember telling my mom that i felt bad, kind of like i was guilty of something, she could never help me feel better
. I couldn't sleep and would cry at night as young as 4 or 5 (the earliest i can remember)
When i had my first DS i was 29 and i was broadsided by debilitating depression when he turned 3 months old, which happens to be the exact age i was when my parents "got" me,( iwas adopted) It would always pass and then i would feel great for a while, be supermom and everything, then eventually i would have another bout of the blues.
This got progressively worse and the depressions got more agitated and it became impossible to be a decent parent or partner...i had an unwavering stance against any form of allopathic medication, so i endured though the depressions kept coming back and were getting worse.
When i became pregnant with DD at the beginning of the second trimester things got worse that i couldve ever imagined. I felt black and depressed alternating with agitation and wanting everyone to stay away from me (i felt okay when i was alone and things were still) and on some days i was so depressed that all i could do to keep from feeling agitated and starting a fight with DH was to drive around alone listening to inspirational tapes trying to bouy my mood and distract me. I got so bad that i would *wish* for an accident bc i didn't have the courage to kill myself and maybe i knew that it would pass eventually (pretty pathetic).
When i birthed DD i felt elated and wonderfull and absolutely no trace of depression for about 7 months until my moontime began again when the same cycles hit me again.
I eventually relented and went to an allopathic DR for an antidepressant. He gave me Prozac (and i was bf-ing) and i instantly (like the next morning) felt euphoric. When i told him, he diagosed me as Bipolr and he said that the prozac sent me into what is called a hypomanic state which is more like euphoria and not the kind of manic that loses touch with reality.
I've spent the last year trying everything except medications and i've got to say that taking large doses of EPA (fish oil) and balancing my blood sugar through diet and excersize have helped immensly. Also my spiritual life has helped me stay strong.
I've recently had a relapse of symptoms and realize that i've been slack about EPA and excersize (and diet too...) so now i'm back on the wagon and hope for the best, but i realize how much my illness has affected all around me and am willing to do *anything* to be a more even mother and partner. I want my kids to have both parents.
I posted on this topic on the depression board and got no responses, so i figured this was a good place...
I wondered if anyone else has had experiences like these? anyone gotten the dreaded "bipolar" diagnosis? if so , had any luck working with it without allopathic meds?