Thank you for telling me sternly to get to the doctor. I think that if you hadn't, I might have gone back into denial about this. Anyway, I went and saw my GP this morning, three kids in tow, right in the middle of naptime, and we were a public spectacle, but I'm glad I went. She said what all of you said, that it's highly unlikely to be cancer, but then felt it and said she "didn't like the way it felt" and referred me to a breast health center. I have an appointment there next Wednesday.
So I still know nothing, but at least I'm taking steps.
And I'm gonna call my mom tonight and ask her for help. If I have to have a bunch of tests and stuff, I'm gonna need her to come and stay with my kids, so I might as well tell her.
I just don't know how I'm going to get through the time between now and when we know something. I had the heck of a time sleeping last night; luckily so did DS, so we kept each other good company.
me , he , my three , , and -- and the one we lost