hi, you guys. i haven't forgotten about you. i just have not been very good about keeping up. vm, glad to see you are expecting!! how far along are you?? hl, glad your little girls are here and healthy.
i'm nearly 33 wks and still enjoying my pregnancy. sure, i have some tiredness, some sciatica, plenty of heartburn (eating about 1/3 of a bottle of tums a day!) but really, i have no complaints. i love being pregnant. i love feeling juicy moving around all day (and he does move alllllllll day) and even being woken by him in the night does not upset me. i couldn't be happier just growing my baby. honestly, i'm going to miss being pregnant.
i found a wonderful midwife and doula who will be coming to the house for juicy's birth. i am ordering a birthing tub and have started the hypnobabies course. i'm so looking forward to his birth, the whole experience, and i think of it as just the most empowering and positive and magical time. i know it's going to be so powerful and healing and wonderful and i visualize over and over again this wonderful day. it's always a little different, but it's always wonderful. i am keeping my birth plans to myself because i am not interested in any negative input, which i know i will surely get if i tell people about my plans. i certainly did the last time. so this time i am protecting myself by keeping it quiet. all the nay sayers can hear about my beautiful birthing after it's already happened.
there's a lot of emotions at this time. juicy is already bigger than erik was when he went home from the hospital. that is almost surreal to me as i feel him moving inside and think of erik in my arms. there is a lot of pain for me now, and also joy.
i have been seeing a chiropractor to open up my pelvis for the birth. he is very helpful in many ways. he lost a daughter in a horrific accident four years ago so his presence is a comfort and we share about our grief as only two parents who are grieving can. he is great to have on my birthing team.
so that is basically where i am in this journey. i try to enjoy every minute of it. these precious days will not last long and i don't want to miss a minute of it.
erik and arthur's mommy
42, 32 weeks 6 days via home insemination with known donor