I am so embarrassed! So, here's the background:
Today was the last day of my internship & I'm really going to miss one of the other interns (stressor #1). DH left for the middle of the wilderness, Alaska, and will be literally unreachable until next Saturday, and I miss him already (stressor #2). I ate a cupcake and like 4 fruit roll-ups (high sugar=stressor #3). I talked to my Mom about whether or not I should go back to law school this fall - she thinks I shouldn't since I don't like it, don't plan on working any time soon, we'll be closing on our new house in November (fingers crossed), then renovating immediately, then moving, and I'd be 36 weeks pregnant during finals right after/during moving. And I think she's right but am having a really hard time making the decision to quit. (major
stressor #4). I went shopping for maternity clothes in a really busy area at 630pm, crowded with tons of people, hot and muggy outside (stressor #5). I got hungry (stressor #6). I got tired (stressor #7).
And here's what happened:
I went to one of my favorite restaurants to pick up some dinner to go, sat down at the bar and ordered. The bartender/waiter guy was super nice and tried to put in the order, but the chef said no (while looking right at me - meanie) since they were busy. So the nice guy goes and gets the GM (I didn't even ask - he was just being really sweet). The GM comes and I see the three of them talking, then the GM comes over to me and says he'll make an exception but they usually don't do to-go orders when they're busy. (Personally, I think this is silly and illogical - I would order the same food whether sitting at the bar or taking it home, but whatever.) We talked a bit and I said it didn't make sense to me, but thanks for making the exception. (I was also getting a little frustrated since DH and I go there all the time and I've ordered food to go before without a problem.)
So... as the GM keeps talking, I just started tearing up!
I kind of turned away from him and said thanks and he left. Then the waterworks started! I could NOT stop bawling! So I'm sitting at the bar in the middle of a crowded restaurant, crying my eyes out while trying not to, and the chefs are all RIGHT there on the other side of the bar, and the nice waiter guy is being sympathetic and telling me he would have ordered it to stay and packed it up for me even if they'd said no (
), and people are looking at me and I'm feeling SO ridiculous because I realize that it looks like I'm crying over food! I tried as much as I could to regain composure, but failed miserably.
After a few minutes (still crying), the GM guy comes over to me with the food, and says he's sorry, that he obviously upset me, he recognizes me from before and doesn't want to lose my patronage, etc. and he says the food is on the house and he won't let me pay for it! So then the crying gets worse
because I'm feeling like a TOTAL fool for causing such a scene and I tried to explain to him that I wasn't upset at him, that I was just pregnant and hormonal and my husband left today and I'd had a long rough day, and it wasn't his fault, and I wanted to pay, etc. It didn't work - he said he must have been a catalyst for making my day worse and was trying to make it better now and gave me his card and wouldn't let me pay for the food. I think I must have looked like a blubbering fool and he just wanted me to leave!
I feel so embarrassed! Will someone please tell me I'm not the only one making a fool out of myself, getting all hormonal and stressed out, crying in public over little things?!