Hello All! For a while there I wasn't getting updates from this thread so I re-subscribed and hopefully it will start notifying me again.
That stuff with your DD's heart sounds scary. Will be sending prayers and positive thoughts your way.
Totally understandable that you should want to wait on all-out TTC until you get it all worked out. Thanks for keeping up the board this month.
So sorry to hear that you are going through this again.
I hope everything resolves itself for you soon.
Thanks for the support mama. How is your little Stella doing these days? Things sounded pretty hopeful for you last time you posted; did you test? Did AF show up? What's happening?
Lovely to hear that your camping trip went well. I love camping. How exciting that your sister is moving in! Is it a long term move? Does she get on well with your DH?
Glad to read that you are recovering. Have you tested yet? (Another cliffhanger from last week. This thread has been far too quiet lately.)
Welcome back! I've also been ridiculously lax on the temping/ charting this summer. Fx for you this month.
AFM It has been a crazy-busy-stressful couple of weeks. We had our big annual party on August 2 so I spent the week prior cleaning and cooking and of course, running. We had 5 adults and 4 kids stay over with us that weekend. And then my friend stayed for the rest of the next week, with her bf joining us on the following weekend.
Since finding a bruise on my big toe I bought a new pair of running shoes, then ran in them a few times and developed pains from my lower back to my toe knuckles. Luckily they let me exchange them for a pair more similar to my last pair but my calfs & shins are still so painful that I skipped my run today. I think I may either do some walking or some yoga this evening instead. I'm not sure if I shared here before that I went to see a new TCM fella and he has diagnosed me as having a deficiency in Kidney Yin. He said that I needed to cut back on the running and I am starting to feel ready for that. Maybe all the stress and sleep deprivation and go-go-going these last couple of weeks is partly to blame but the 90 min runs I was doing a few weeks ago felt exhilarating and the 2 hr run I did this past week mostly felt grueling.
It was pretty hard not to try this month. I am like a pavlovian dog, trained to see EW and immediately seek out DH.
It has taken conscious effort to stay away from him. I should O in the next day or two and then I can remind him of what he's been missing.
I thought it was going to hard to be with my pregnant friend but it was actually really fun. I started imagining if it would be a girl or a boy and how it would look and how fun it would be to see her belly grow and see her expression when she felt it kick. Since she has no family in this country and her relationship with her bf is not too stable, I told her she could come stay with us during the birth and weeks following if she needed support. It was fun taking care of her and making her all sorts of good things to eat. I bought her two pregnancy books and we did some gentle prenatal yoga together. Everything was bliss and then on Wednesday evening she started spotting.
I told her that it might be nothing and then I went to my own room to cry. Late Thursday night she miscarried and I felt almost as terrible as if it had been me. I had let myself get so excited over this new baby, and it wasn't even my baby, I don't know how I'll bear it if it happens again to me. I felt so helpless. But I was glad that I could be there for her and care for her as she grieved and I really hope she gets pregnant again soon. On a happier note, I was skeptical before meeting her bf but he turned out to be a really wonderful and considerate guy. He was a superstar with DS and that counts for a lot in my book.