I have been a long time lurker and wanted to finally introduce myself. I am 33 weeks pregnant with my third baby and am planning my second homebirth. I struggled with hyperemesis for the first half of this pregnancy and did with my other babies as well. I am actually feeling great physically (except for a nagging back ache from time to time) now. I am eating well, have gained TONS of weight, and drinking my pregnancy tea by the quart. ☺
But I have been very up and down with this pregnancy emotionally- although my second child and this baby will be 2 1/2 years apart in February, we weren't planning on getting pregnant quite yet...Surprise! My husband and I aren't very close right now and I am struggling to get excited for another newborn. Dh is struggling with depression and hasn't been very engaged in this pregnancy. Well, I take that back- he took very good care of me when I was puking 30 times a day. He just hasn’t been very excited about the baby and I really need him to be. He doesn’t rub or kiss my tummy like he did with my other babies. He was also very good about telling me how beautiful I was when I was pregnant before. I think his lack of interest/support is just now hitting me and I have been very emotional. After everyone goes to bed at night I just feel like crying. And sometimes I do. During the day however, I am just a grump. My poor kids are paying the price too. This pregnancy is really taking a toll on all of us. Maybe I am just feeling the hormones of pregnancy. I don’t remember being this up and down with my other pregnancies. I am worried my head won’t be where it needs to be when labor begins. Crazy enough I am very excited for the homebirth though. I have had my birth kit ready for a few months!
Anyway, I suppose I am now jumping in because I already feel apart of this community and am needing some love and support. I am seriously huge- so I will post a belly picture soon so you can visualize a belly with my signature ☺.