I have suddenly morphed into a monster mommy.
I've been trying to get dd to nap with me, because her bedtime is all thrown off. She's used to me lying down with her until she's asleep and the baby always needs me at that time, so she's going to bed much later, plus getting woken up at night. She really needs more sleep.
Attempted nap time today was a disaster. I am crying right now. I was acting like a seriously bad monster mommy.
She would not lie down and go to sleep, kept kicking the covers and pulling open the curtains after I asked her not to. I kept picking her up and taking her out of the room and saying "you can take a nap with me, or you can play by yourself out here" Of course, she would say "take a nap with you"
"O.K, then you can't kick or pull the curtains or talk, you have to lie down and go to sleep"
"O.K, mommy, I will"... rewind to the beginning of this paragraph and repeat... repeat ... repeat.
I finally ended up totally yelling at her in a mean voice and being kind of rough with her (several times).
Now I think she got the point and is playing while I write this (and cry).
ds slept like a newborn through it all and is still sleeping. I am a sleep deprived wreck. My whole support network is gone this week... either on vacation or sick with the flu or too pregnant to help*and I have no one to call on. I'm only 9 days pp and it seems like too soon to be on my own with both of them. I have barely slept in two nights. If this keeps up, I feel like I could be on my way to ppd.
This is the most disconnected I have ever felt with dd. I told her that she was being bad.
Now I don't know how to make amends with her. What should I do?
She was blatantly
doing what I asked her not to do and then laughing when I got mad, which is SO
infuriating, especially when I'm lying in bed and trying to sleep.
I feel like the worst mom ever. The poor kid is going through so much, and now her ever loving, gentle, patient mom has turned into a raving lunatic.
To top it all off, we live in Seattle and the sun is shining brilliantly out there, and we are stuck inside the house acting like jerks to each other.
Anyone else having a rather horrible time trying to adjust to having two kids??