You aren't a bad mom. My dd had "colic" for 9 nine and it was pure hell. She cried all day long- literally (except when she slept). Sometimes I had to put her in her crib and walk away because I was afraid I would hurt her or something. We tried everything to find out what was wrong, but in the end the doctor just said it was colic. I dont know if I agree, but there wasn't anything else I could do.
I remember one evening when she just kept screaming and I lost it. I started yelling at her and telling her to just shut up already. Then, of course, I immediately felt like total and utter crap and broke down into hysterical sobs.
The bad thing is, with the new baby, I am automatically gun-shy. He doesn't cry much, but when he does, I go from happy to super-annoyed really quick. It brings back the memories that I would like to forget.
Everyone kept saying it would stop at 3 months (like most colic) but it didn't. However, my dd was the exception to the rule I think. If your baby has colic, he will most likely change around 2 or 3 months.
Whatever you do, don't beat yourself up. You are completely normal. I also suggest that you talk about it with dh, because he is probably feeling very similar.
Corrie, "trad" Catholic, wife to DH and Mom to DD (4/07), DS (2/09), DD (2/11), DD (4/13), two angel babies.