i had a really bad dream last night. someone gave me a baby- a toddler actually, he was asian (we are not), but this was my Terran (who i think i am carrying now). i was meeting him, holding him, talking to him, looking in his face, getting to know him and then suddenly ds1 was lost in a crowd and i had to desperately search for him. i was holding Terran close to my chest, like a little baby (tho he looked about 18months old), and frantically searching for ds. i spotted him, made contact, he was safe- but suddenly Terran was gone. So then I was frantically searching for him. I kept finding little unaccompanied asian boys the same age, but none so smiley or cute as him. i could not find him and i kept calling his name but it wouldnt come out i could barely whisper tho i wanted to scream.
such a disturbing frightening dream and when i woke up i was afraid it meant i would lose the baby. but then i remembered dreaming while i carried ds1 that i left his infant carrier on the roof of the car while loading groceries and drove off with him on the roof! and this certainly never did or ever would happen!
i dont want to have nightmares though! i wonder if the fact that i ate taco bell late at night could have possibly been a contributing factor? i definitely wont do that again!