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#1 of 4 Old 05-14-2009, 10:09 PM - Thread Starter
 
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I believe it's lack of sleep....
even though Maggie is sleeping great, I still find it hard to wind down at night. I have always had anxiety at night- almost a fear to turn off the TV because I know I won't be able to shut off my brain.
I hurt today and I don't know if it's because of DTD for the first time this week or because I started back with my part time job yesterday which consists of me taking a little old lady to her medical appointments each week (for $20 and hour...not too shabby eh?). I walked alot yesterday and today I have just felt every tiny nerve ending in the neither regions. It's like tiny little sparks constantly. Tylenol hasn't touched it...and I am seriously a freaking step away from taking a 5mg loritab I have left over from last year LOL but i am terrified that it will affect little Mag.
Anywhoo I just feel like crying....
Kylie had a tough day just doing little things that she knew would get my attention. She took all of our mail I brought in and just threw it all over the floor and gave me the "what are you going to do now" grin. She NEVER does things like that and I know it's just because she is trying to act out her frustrations. Thank goodness she is still as sweet as can be to Maggie. She can be redirected great if I take the time to give her words....I will usually tell her that I know she is sad that mommy can't hold her like she used to and then I will go on to explain why and follow that with how proud I am of her. After i did that after the mail incident she went right to the living room and picked it all up and said, "I sorry mommy"...which I think is pretty good for a 2.5 year old. BUT on days like today I don't always have the instant reaction to talk her through things everytime....and most of today I spent not being very nice after her acting out behaviors .
Mom and dad took her for a while tonight and will bathe her before bringing her home. DH is working all night which adds to the anxiety at night.
Anywhoo...I just needed to vent

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I have anxiety at night also so I know exactly what you're describing

Do you think maybe you're doing too much too soon and need a little more down time to heal? My toddler is trying me a lot lately too and some days I just want to lock myself in the bedroom for a time out.

Do you have any Rescue Remedy that you can take? Are you taking fish oil? When I have particularly bad days I rely on Bach's Rescue Remedy or I make my own combination from the kit depending on what's bothering me, its makes a big difference just in terms of being able to cope and relax.

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Do you have any Rescue Remedy that you can take? Are you taking fish oil? When I have particularly bad days I rely on Bach's Rescue Remedy or I make my own combination from the kit depending on what's bothering me, its makes a big difference just in terms of being able to cope and relax.
No but I will get some tomorrow
I tend to burn the candle at both ends...so yeah I may be doing too much but the part time job I have to somehow manage because that's what's allowing me to afford to go 2 months unpaid from my full time job. I think I need to learn how to live with an unclean house LOL....because I spend a lot of the day stressing about how I am going to clean. I am after all the dumb ass who vacuumed my freaking furniture the day after I got home from the hospital

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I have the anxiety at night thing too, for years. What I've done that has helped me is to listen to books on my iPod when I go to bed. I set the iPod's timer for 15 minutes and that usually does the trick, sometimes I need 30 minutes.

Reading doesn't work because I'm up witht he lights on, but listening to books is great, you're in the dark laying down....

I only use one ear bud so I can hear my son if he wakes
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