Hi there. I am 40, stay at home homeschooling mama to 4, and one on the way due in October. I am now alone with my children. The same week I found out I was pregnant, my husband didn't come home from work. Turns out he was arrested and in jail. To say this was a huge shock would be an understatement! We all thought he was in a car accident or something. But, I have since learned that my husband had a lot of secrets, one of them being sex/pornography addiction. Even though he hadn't viewed pornography in our almost 16 year marriage it was still there lurking in his mind always, from his past that I didn't know about, and it reared it's ugly head in a very ugly way. So I have gotten to 16 weeks pregnant all on my own, suffering thru hyperemesis like I did with all mine. I am doing better now and off the home IV therapy! I am going to be alone for a while. He is not allowed to come home, and it will be a while before I am ready for that anyway, if ever. One good thing is he is very repentant, and willing to do whatever it takes to get his family back. We shall see. I got mothering magazine with my first child who is 15 now! I have breastfeeding them all to toddlers, but my baby girl is just weaning now at 14 months because my milk has dried up with the pregnancy. I am so unhappy about that! Very hard times for me and my kiddos right now but we are trying to be strong. Anyway that is quite an intro! Hope I will be welcome.