Such loving, sincere advice- thanks so much!
I've been working on some bartering/payment options and am almost ready to make a final decision on a midwife. I will probably continue to see the OB I picked for prenatals, as long as I feel comfortable. I picked a really old, experienced fellow, not one these young useless OBs(so excited about everything-ready to section in a heartbeat) so far he's pretty harmless, as far as prenatals go, and that way I get labs and an ultrasound paid for on insurance.
I can use his labwork for my midwife and save some change there.
"It is a mistake to not do everything in your power to get midwifery care, even when it costs you money. OB care is not even in the same league, even if it were 100% free."
I actually know this all too well- deep in my soul I know this. Thats why the money worries are eating away at me. We were so very fortunate to have my daughter in London, a homebirth that was completely covered on our NHS insurance- national healthcare- imagine that! It didnt cost me dime (pence) and the icing was 5 months paid maternity leave. So I should just suck it up and foot the bill this time around, right?
well- thats what I am doing. Making the cash to pay the midwife.
And what do I do to make the cash to pay the midwife?
Well, I worked a little extra tonight actually, which is why I am on the computer at this ungodly hour. I can't sleep. why?
Tonight I assisted in the unneccessary induction of an aprox 36-37 week infant who was supposed to be 39 weeks, small for dates. Hmmmmmmmm, this skinny little thing, whose cord was cut aprox 2 minutes after delivery, depriving her of an essential 60-120mls of oxygen rich blood, starting have respiratory stress issues. thanky Lawdy we were in the HOSPITAL where all of these TRAINED PROFESSIONALS were there to do retarded things to her in the name of her "HEALTH" useless suctioning, staring at her on a warmer, 5 feet from her mother, for almost 30 minutes. these trained profressionals were discussing, plotting, conspiring, writing down vital signs. Finally, mom got to hold(and with my humble assistance, breastfeed her little girl, skin to skin at my insistence. OF course, the talk of blood sugars and supplementing began, NICU protocols, the baby's health is at stake so lets give formula supplements???
sometimes I feel like I work on Mars and am dealing with Martians. After 45 minutes of skin to skin that baby's respiratory rate was stable, no distress, temp stable. But-- she couldn't stay there, could she???
well, of course not, she must be removed and then bathed on a warmer, the most ridiculous cruel thing to do to a 2 hour old infant. their delicate, sensitive skin rubbed and scrubbed by some lunatic trying like mad to remove that icky vernix.
ok,its just occured to me that I am ranting.
I'll stop now and go lay down and fall gently to sleep with my baby's delicate movements within as my lullaby. I will sleep better having gotten that all off my chest. sorry, but thanks for letting me vent.