I just received my the copy of Holistic Midwifery II that I ordered early in the month. I'm so excited. It's much more beautiful than I expected.
Lennon, I felt the way you were describing for about the first year of my apprenticeship. I was so stressed out, I was having all these weird symptoms: lump in my throat, feeling like I couldn't take a deep breath, and sweating the stinkiest sweat ever, right through my cloths no matter what kind of underarm stuff I tried. It definately got better with time, and soon I felt confident that the information I was giving was accurate, even if it wasn't exactly how my preceptors would have responded.
I miss being on call. I haven't been to a birth since early May! There is a client due now who said I could bring the baby, so I may be going to a birth soon. We shall see if I actually get a call though. Her last birth was about an hour long and her sister ended up catching the baby!
Wife to Joe and Mama to Rosie, 6/28/06, Jack, 10/25/08 and JoJo 3/18/10.