I get so angry about doctors like the one that gave you the rough exam. It's YOUR birth and your body but they act like THEY own it! Makes me so mad!!! I don't normally get mad easily... but honestly, this is my big pet peeve in life, women being robbed of their dignity and treated like they're stupid during a time when they are in too much pain/distress to stand up for themselves.
I'm really sorry for what you had to go through. You deserved better. Sometimes it seems like no matter how you plan, it all goes down the drain. I felt the same way with my 2nd birth. Take care of yourself!