Hi ladies, I'm Savannah and I posted my daughters story here after she was born. Quick summary of my birthing experiences.... two "failed" homebirths, transferred to hospital and two c-section babies. My second birth (also "failed" HBAC) resulted in abusive treatment by the medical staff to the point of hospital transfer by helicopter, threats of CPS, refusal to let me breastfeed or hold my daughter, and nine days of hospitalization for a healthy baby.
I was emptied of all dignity that I might have had left, and completely exhausted after all of this.
About 4 months after her birth I started therapy (I've been going for about 5 months now) and I'm so happy to say I feel much better! As many moms have wrote, I'm sure that memory will always pain me, but it pains me less now. I function, not only function but I engage. My past is no longer controlling my life. Moments and memories were stole from me it's true, but I'm not letting that happen any more.
Check out EMDR, it's really working for me and I just wanted to say that here, in a place where I know it could help some of you.