This is my first post to the mothering forums. I am recovering from an unplanned c-section four months ago for my first child. I am still battling the the disappointment/anger/regrets. I have yet to complete the birth story of my first child, which I know is an important part to recovery, and I want to keep this post short. But I am battling with that fundamental question of whether my c/s was really necessary or not. Today I got copies of the labor and delivery notes from the hospital, and now I am really am thinking....if I could have just moved, if I could have just had more time....Here are the bare facts:
7:30pm -- Water breaks
10:00pm -- Contractions start, about 15 mins apart
3:00 am -- Contractions 5-6 mins apart, lasting 45-60 seconds
6:00 am -- Contractions 3 mins apart, lasting 60 seconds
7:30 am -- At the hospital, contractions now irregular 5-6 mins apart and then 2 mins apart
Dilated 4-5cm according to the doctor at the time (but now see that his notes say 2-3cm)
Despite approved birth plan, I am told I can not leave the bed, not even to use the restroom, had constant fetal monitoring
Around noon, dilated 5cm, pitocin and epidural started (I have a lot to write about all this, but that is for another time)
1:30 pm -- Nurse puts me on oxygen, saying the fetal heart rate is dropping some, but she says not to worry because his variability is good and that that is what matters most
2:40 -- Dilation: nurse says 7cm, doctor says 5-6cm. Because of the slow progress and the baby showing signs of distress, he says it is time for a c/s.
When I agreed to the c/s, I assumed that there was a change in the variability and other monitored sign.
So now I get the hospital's summary which states: "By the afternoon, she was still only 5 to 6cm and was starting to have intermittent late fetal heart rate decelerations with good recovery and good long-term variability. At this point, the decision was made to proceed with operative delivery."
I really do not know much about the monitored signs, but to me this sounds like performing the c/s was necessary at that time.
What do y'all think?
Any input is much appreciated.