C-section Scar still not healed, OB doesn't know what to do. Still have open incision with "blood pockets"
Backstory: (Sorry it's long)
I had NO major pregnancy complications other than tachycardia my first trimester and I had initially intended to have a natural birth (although, b/c I have an autoimmune condition, I was in a hospial). After my son was 11 days overdue, I finally went into labor (contraction every 4 minutes almost the entire time). After 13 hours of labor, I was still only 1.5 cm dialated. They told me that b/c if I wasn't at 10cm by the time I hit the 24 hour mark, they would do a c-section (b/c my water had been broken too long). So, The gave me the pitocin. Over the next few hours my blood pressure kept crashing (80/50-ish) and they had to keep shooting me up with some drug to raise it back up (b/c I kept passing out). THen, 10 hours of Pit later, I was only at 4.5cm. This combined with the drops in my BP made them say I had to have a c/s. I was then given an epidural to numb me for surgery. I had a gorgeous DS. However, I was unable to hold him as I went into full body shakes for over 1 Hour. I could not lie in a bed, couch or anything under 45 deg for 1 full month. I could not get up to a standing position for without assistance for almost 3 weeks. It was then discovered I had a post-op infection. Gave me antibiotics and I got much better after about 2 weeks on them.
At 4 months out I went back b/c my incision was still open and still bleeding. I have gotten 6 shots into the cincision since then and it did help it close a little. However, it's been just over 6 months now, and I still have an open incision with blood pockets. My OB says she doesn't know anything else to do.
Has anyone had this???? I'm trying to forgive myself, but I have so much guilt over not having a natural birth, about not getting to breastfeed (I did pump for 5 weeks, but was only able to get a 1/2oz out at a time, so he was on formula from day two). But more than guilt, I'm angry b/c there is NO way that an MD should just shrug and basically say learn to live with an unhealed incision. This also really makes me doubt being able to realistically have another child b/c of all the complications.
Can anyone here, give me direction on what to do here?