i wanted to know if you tore did you squat? what position did you use? i used a birthing stool and i also leaned on the bed with my head down for the last part of the birth. i'm not sure exactly how long i was in this position. i do know i could feel my baby's head with my fingers only an inch or so up the birth canal. a couple of birth professionals feel that my squatting could be the reason i tore so badly (almost 4th degree, slight tear through to rectum). i did have to climb up on the bed for him to be born and sort of squatted but leaned back on my hand. he came out with his hand up by his head as well. i also pushed a lot because it felt good to do so. it was almost like if i pushed really hard i didn't feel the contraction as much....or maybe i just wanted it over with, i don't know. all in all the labor -up until the birth- wasn't too bad for me, it was doable.
there was other trauma to my story but for starters i'm scared to death of having another baby and tearing. although it seems the outcome for subsequent births for a lot of women who have torn are pretty good. however there aren't any guarantees.
anyway what happened with your tear? has anyone figured it out?
The repair and recovery was worse than the labour and birth.
I was so scared to tear again, that I opted for a c-section the second time around.
This is not necessarily the right decision for everyone (by far) but I had nightmares, anxiety attacks, cold sweats, etc. for months leading up to my approximate due date - and in the end, chose for a managed delivery.
I pushed in a more upright position for #2, a homebirth, no coached pushing, only pushed 3 times and birthed an 8.5 lb baby with no tearing at all. No perineal massage, just support as the baby was coming out.
For my third I had a hospital birth due to high bp, but with my midwives only in attendance. I pushed according to my urges again, but once his head was born his shoulders were a little sticky so my midwife immediately pushed me into a flat on my back position with my knees way up by my ears (I held them myself), I knew he was in distress and I pushed like heck even thinking at the time I was going to tear like crazy from the position. But I did not! 8.10 lb baby born in under 5 mins pushing and not a single tear, I was not even sore afterwards.
I hope you have a similar success story with your next child.
Alex 8 Gabby 6 (Homeborn!) Gideon 2.... chickens, ducks, cats and a dog
When he was crowning, my MWs could tell that I was going to tear and they told me to slow down and let them help me to take a few pushes to ease him out. No way! I was too excited and just shot him out. I didn't care one bit about the tear and to this day I don't know to what degree it was or how many stitches I had (DH knows and he just says "a LOT"). All I know is that my MW was down there stitching for a LOOOONG time and she was very proud of her work, everyone gathered around to admire. I actually found it all really funny, though looking back now I'm not sure why that would be funny. I'm usually soooo modest. Recovery was fine.
I'm pretty sure that there are things I could have done to prevent the tear - pernium massage and stretching in advance of the birth (never bothered) and slowing down that final leg of DS's journey but for some reason I just don't care. It was an exhilirating exprience, doesn't matter if it wasn't "perfect" because I did exactly as I felt was right in that moment. I think it helps immensely that my midwives, even though I disregarded their advice and wouldn't let them help, never made me feel badly about tearing. No one ever implied that I could have done better. I'm really sorry that yours made you feel this way especially if you were just doing what felt right to you. I think birthing is a balance between listening to our own instincts and letting the knowledge of others guide us. When it comes down to it though, our bodies have very powerful voices and there is no shame in listening to them.
Happy mumma to my boys Henny Tom (Nov 30, 2008), Arlo Odie (Oct 5, 2010), and baby SISTER! due mid-Dec 2014.
I would do it the same way next time. Who can plan for or prevent nuchal hands?
I've read a few threads on these boards that indicate that women who have a bad tear with one delivery aren't necessarily more prone to tearing badly later. So while the stitching up after delivery was WORSE for me than the labor and delivery itself, I personally will still go the same route and hope for the best if/when we have a third child.
Wife to dh and mommy to dd1 (3/07), ds (1/10), and dd2 (any day now)!
Well, with my second I pushed through crowning and my kids have HUGE heads (90th+ percentile) so no, that didn't end well. Apparently I was yelled at not to push or something, but I was in la la land and heard no one except the bowling ball pressing down on my bits. LOL
I was squatting with a squat bar on the hospital bed. Doctor tried to slow me down and asked me if I wanted to lay on my side...but at the time I just wanted her out and squatting was doing the job quickly. Unfortunately, the doctor thinks that's what led to the 4th degree tear. Like a PP said, he did a great job stitching and I've had no complications. I've had friends who has much lesser tears that didn't heal well, they've had to have surgery, still can't have sex 5 month post partum, pain, blood, fear with bowel movements! It sounds awful! I am shocked that my 4th degree tear seemed like no big deal compared to theirs.
**Also, I have read many places that midwives see much more tearing with squatting and my doctor was right to try and encourage me to reposition and slow down. I wish I'd listened.
From what i understand, in China anyway people tend to squat with their feet completely flat (not on their toes) and quite close together and their knees closer together than in the west. In the West you see people with their feet and knees pointing more out to the side so they look like a frog, in the East the knees and feet point forwards, more like a sitting dog or cat. Make sense? Don't know how easy it'd be to do with a big pregnant belly against the thighs though...
Ah I think I know what you mean. I just tried them both with myself. I kept my feet flat on the floor with both squats. Feels like the "frog" way I was much more "out there" and stretched thinner down there . The cat/dog squat was easier to balance in (though frog wasn't bad). And you aren't as out there down there. It feels more supported.
I have no idea how you could be 9 months pregnant and do the cat/dog squat though ...no room for the belly.Maybe it's a modified cat/dog squat where you keep you feet still pointing forward ...? I just tried it --cat/dog squat but with knees wider apart, imagining I was making room for a belly-- but with feet pointing forward. Felt a little more out there but not as much as when doing the "frog squat".
None of this is scientific but that's how these felt to me anyway!
Anyway thanks :) I feel like I get it more now.
I pushed in every position imaginable (posterior baby that didn't want to budge), but was in a side-lying position when he came out. I had a second degree perineal tear and a sulcus tear (that was the ouchy one), but baby also had a nuchal hand and the OB manually turned him, so I'm not sure which part of that disaster caused the tearing.
Whatever the cause was, the healing was FAR worse than the labor! I would have liked to have had a postpartum epidural for the first six weeks or so! :P
I was on my back in the hospital with an epidural (which I finally requested after 24 hours of hard labor). I only pushed through 4 contractions so the baby came out quite fast. I had a 2nd degree tear that was so ragged the OB lost count of the stitches and couldn't tell which edges to join, though by all accounts he did a good job. To make matters worse, I overexerted myself those first few days and ended up ripping through the stitches and getting infected. I am now expecting again and am terrified...this time I will be doing a water birth at a birth center with a midwife, and am researching positions and massage to prevent a recurrence.
Wife to DH from Mexico, and mother to DD (01/10); DS (09/11); and one on the way (03 or 04/14)
I was on hands and knees when pushed my daughter out and had a second degree tear requiring 6 stitches, a labial skidmark, and a smaller tear near my clitoris that was really painful as well. I attribute the tearing to my pushing too hard (VBAC, I've heard it's common for VBAC moms to push too hard because we're so eager to get that baby out!), lack of perineal support (my midwife arrived just as the head was starting to emerge), and the kicker, a nuchal arm (arm wrapped around her neck, not just a hand by her head). The recovery was pretty tough, it was several weeks before I could sit comfortably on any hard surface.
SAHM to 6.5yo DS and 4yo DD. PCOS with two early m/cs. Married 8 yrs. Certified birth doula, writer, editor.
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