My last pregnancy ended up being incredibly stressful during the third trimester. DD was born with a serious birth defect that we found by ultrasound at 28 weeks (it was our first u/s with the pregnancy, we were planning a homebirth until that point). Her birth itself wasn't terribly traumatic for me, but the last trimester of the pregnancy and everything that happened after she was born was horrible. I am sure that I have PTSD from the hospital experience with her, nearly losing her more than once, etc, I cry every time I look at pictures of her when she was sick, and I can't even go through her clothes from that time without having a panic attack.
Now I'm 21 weeks pregnant again, and I'm realizing that I'm incredibly afraid that there is going to be something wrong with this baby, too. I'm afraid this baby will have a birth defect too. I'm afraid that I won't get to have a homebirth again, because we'll find out something is wrong, or because I'll go into labor early. I'm having regular braxton-hicks contractions every day (like, a few minutes apart for an hour or more at a time), and it makes me really nervous. To make it worse, I had lab results come back that are scaring me even more, because they show that I'm low in a vitamin that actually causes birth defects.
Has anyone else gone through a scary/traumatic experience, and then had the trauma resurface in a subsequent pregnancy? How did you deal with it?