Ok, so I my official due date is June 10th. Early measuring(no u/s, just uterus height), however, put me at a few weeks sooner, so I've been counting on late May, and saying June 1st. And I was ok with those dates, up until a week ago. Now...I kind of don't feel 'ready.' With my first, I was READY. I had visualized the birth, we were living with in-laws (ack!) and I didn't need to cook/clean/nest quite as much, and I certainly didn't have a toddler to worry about!
Back to my point, I just don't have a clear 'view' in my mind of this birth. With my DD, I knew I wanted hands and knees, I was calm and clear and fully committed to labor and whatever came with it, and really her labor was wonderful. But, this time around, I'm not nearly as emotionally involved? ready? prepared? I don't know. But I feel like until I do 'know,' or at least work that out, that the baby is staying in!
I also am feeling a bit like I will never be done nesting, and like having the baby would be a serious inconvenience in my projects.
Like thats the important thing. We have guests coming (who I am looking forward to, don't get me wrong!) on the 1st, who THOUGHT they were going to be here after baby to help wear out the toddler and do dishes, but now I'm telling them baby may be in a few more weeks....
TELL ME TO CALM DOWN AND STOP TRYING TO CONTROL THINGS!!!
How do you control freaks 'let go' of the need/desire to have a plan when babies come at their own pace?
Do any second+ times moms have btdt stories about a lack of mental/emotional prep for labor?
I just can't even imagine having this baby. I CANNOT see the process in my head. And I've already given birth!