Seems like everything is piling on top of me right now!
My parents arrive this evening, given we live 5000 miles away, they don't exactly visit often, it's 16months since I last saw them, the longest gap between visits my whole life.
Having a newborn and particularly one that's been challenging to nurse, we are not exactly guest ready. I don't feel like I have to play the perfect host to my parents, but I want to, I don't want the opportunity for sarcastic comments in future.
DH isn't helping with the stress as he's busy doing things I consider over the top, like cleaning paintwork in the guest room, when there are basics like loading the dishwasher that need doing.
I've put on a lot of weight since the birth and I'm dreading any comments about that and them watching everything I put in my mouth. For some reason I don't gain weight easily in pregnancy, then afterwards nursing makes me ravenous and I quickly rise to where I would be if I'd put on an average amount in pregnancy, so I'm not enormous, just a size 10 rather than a size 6.
At the moment I've been taking meds to sleep and DH has been sleeping in the guest room with the baby and giving her pumped milk in the night, last night he slept with the baby in the kids room. He's been off work since the birth, but he'll go back on Wednesday, I'm sure if we continue this, it's going to cause comment that I'm being selfish and lazy, I don't think they have a clue what it's like to literally not sleep at all without meds. If I were to nurse in the night having taken the meds (the ones I'm on don't go through to the milk), my husband would have to stay awake anyway for safety.
The more stressed I get the more unable I am to do anything that would relieve my feeling of unpreparedness.
Nursing is stressing me out too, we went to the doctor today because lactation were telling us that DD isn't gaining enough weight, but the doctor said she's gaining weight fine and we should stop worrying and just nurse her and not supplement (we supplement with breastmilk), but when we tried that two weeks ago, she only gained an ounce in a week. She seems to have reflux and I'm not good at telling her pain cries from her hungry cries so I worry that I'm starving her because I think she's in pain when actually she's hungry. You'd think with baby number 3 I'd have the hang of this a bit better!
Anne, Christian mummy to Nathanael 05/28/03, Ada 06/10/05, Grace 05/24/09