Oh yeah, this little community of former HSers ROCKS!!! And Indigolilybear, I didn't mean to devalue or dismiss what you are both going through, by saying about how lucky you are to have the Waldorf charter. I re-read my post and it sounded, well, like I was dismissing your struggles. But I'm not at all. Gads, I totally get what you are saying. I also don't see school as "necessary" after years of HSing, and I also have the tendency to say, "Hey, if you don't like it, you don't have to go, etc." It is really, really hard to watch our little cubs have any sadness and stress at drop-off, and to think that they might feel sad and miss us during the say.
It's a really hard thing as a mom, isn't it? It's just very
to see our little one not smiling. Very hard. Well, she will probably grow to LOVE her little Waldorfy school, and if she doesn't (unlikely), you really can keep her home again. Sounds like the teacher is nice though. I wish you all the luck with your transition.
My three kids walked to their school this morning, with Daddy. It will be good for them to start walking there in the morning, because it will help to counteract all that sitting they have to do. I'm also planning to have the older ones swim before school three days a week, or at least DS since he is always up really, really early and is literally bursting with energy. Literally bursting at the seams to exercise, at any time of day.
Reasons that school is good right now:
1. Nice community! I see so many nice moms at drop-off, and feel for the first time like we are part of our community. It rocks. HSing was so isolating. I hated driving all the time for them to see kids, and half the time we wouldn't see any kids anyway, not until swim practice every afternoon.
2. Time to myself for the first time in 12 years. I mean, I still have the two little ones at home, but that is OK. I don't think I could go "cold turkey" to zero kids right now, LOL! I might implode or something. But anyway, it's quiet in the house now, and the little ones are just happy to do whatever, and don't have a freakin agenda like the older ones always did. It's relaxing to walk on the beach and hang out at the library and coffee shop. SO MUCH EASIER.
3. The kids get a break from each other and from me, and from their birth order (in the words of Linda on the Move.) No more fighting and bickering. It's good for everyone to break the habit of fighting all the time, and to have home be a haven again instead of them seeing it as a battleground because they're so sick of each other.
4. For the first time, we might get to actually save money. PS is free, unlike the myriad of activities we did every month as HSers. Not to mention, all the gas money we will save. Not only is PS free, but they are so happy to go! Can't beat that!!
5. For me, there is SO MUCH less stress, and this will really help my mental health. The stress of having five kids together (and bickering) all the time was bad for them and bad for me. It was getting really bad, like where I was considering anti-anxiety meds or anti-depressants. When all I really needed was a break from the little buggers. (Still thinking about meds though.)
6. They might actually LEARN some stuff, academically speaking, without my having to teach them. We are unschoolish anyway, which I love, but the older kids were getting pretty remedial in math and writing.
OK, time to go grab a shower. I don't want to spend all day in my PJs.
Take care mammas!! The weekend is coming, and we'll soon all be able to be together with our cubs again as families! I love the weekends now and actually treasure being with them, because now I miss them. I'm jealously guarding nearly every moment of family time on the weekends. Anyone else feel like that?