Join Date: Apr 2003
Location: praying, researchin' and bedrestin'
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ds turned 2 weeks old today. he was only 4 lbs at birth, 6 weeks early, and this is by far my hardest recovery. the labor was no cakewalk (put on mag= stuck in bed, plus pit and arom and i was in PAIN!) i chose no epi just because i knew lil guy would prob have enough issues being born preemie. i'm having headaches, swelling, dizziness major back pain, am exhausted (found out i'm anemic for the first time in my life) and am weepy for the stupidest thigns it seems. add that ds is not nursing, so i am pumping, fortifying, bottlefeeding and the washing all associated paraphanalia associated with that.
ds poops out easily and hardly seems to want to eat. he is up to 4-9 as of today, but i am wary of how much of that is that i am basically trying to force him to eat instead of letting him have what he wants when he wants it. it is just harder w the fortifier because unlike mama's milk once he has started the feed it has to be used within an hour or discarded. i am a good pumper, but it is still a big hassle. i have 2 other kids to take care of and i just don't feel i am worth anything as a mother right now to any of my kids, and not much of a wife to my hub either. the nurse that came today to do the home visit called and made me an appt with the doctor's office w someone i havent even met there. (i was previously a midwife patient who had to transfer to an ob- i met and liked both the babycathers, but this person tomorrow (a PA) will be entirely new to me.
dh is stressed to his limit too. he has been on fmla because he had no time off left, so we're broker than broke right now. we're staying at hub's parent's house because i was on bedrest for so long and i was unable to help get anythign rearranged so it still hasn't been done. we have no rrom there right now. i need to sell girly clothes to get them outta the house (and get $ in) since we are NOT having any more kids. it is only a 2 bedroom trailer, and we have no space in it.
l, <>< wife to my sweetie, proud mama to 3 cubs, 2 who clw & 1 that i i ep for . baby was evicted early by induction due to severe pre-e/hellp syndrome