Now, a year later, I can't get over this beautiful creature I get to hold, cuddle, nuzzle, smell, and just love knowing how much i love him, and he loves me.
A year ago, I never would have suspected that in one year my life would be where it is.
How about you, ladies?
I NEVER imagined I'd have another baby! We were done, I was looking into adoption, lurking on adoption boards, dreaming about my future little girl.
Last night I had a tickle fight with my 3 month old little boy instead
That little girl is still in my dreams, I still desperately want her, she's out there somewhere waiting for me to come get her...now it just has to wait a bit longer
I didn't get my BFP till Jan 19th. . .so last year at this time, my sister was in town for a visit and I was feeling a little "off", but I just thought that my period was gong to start any minute and chalked it up to that. We were trying to get pregnant, but it was only our second cycle of trying and I had been on the Pill for years (and we are both n our mid-30s) so I was convinced it was going to take 6 months for me to get pg. I didn't even think I had had fertile CM that cycle.
When I did POAS on the 19th it was just to reassure myself that my period would start any minute. I really thought I'd just get a neg result and then then AF would visit. Ha! Boy was I surprised. In fact, I put the stick down in the bathroom and wandered off (so convinced was I of a neg) and didn't come back to it till like 10-15min later. I was so confused by the two lines! I thought that I had just left the test for too long! So I did another one and then paced around the house for awhile freaking out a bit before going to tell my DH.
I spent the whole first trimester thinking something would go wrong and basically not really believing I had gotten pg so quickly. . .and today I am watching my beautiful little boy play and coo.
I have so much more trust in my body than this time last year. Everything is different (obviously), but absolutely for the better! I love being a mama even more than I had imagined!
Me= crunchy mama to one rambunctious toddler, born on October 1, 2009. And one sweet little baby born January 19, 2012.
I definitely did NOT expect a positive test, even though we were TTC. December 2008 was a horrible month for me-- I had a back injury, was super stressed out about school, stressed about Christmas, etcetera. We'd been TTC for a year and I was just so disappointed and over it.
The only reason I tested on the 12th last year was that I hosted a baby shower for a friend of mine on the 11th. It was odd because I had been feeling really bitter about people successfully getting pregnant and having babies and stuff... but I didn't feel bitter at all at her party. I figured I'd made peace with my difficulties TTC. And then I thought, what the hey, I'll test now and get it over with for this month and move on with my life.
And it was positive. And boy, was I surprised.
Been a crazy, crazy year full of change but I can't say I'm sorry about any of it.
Mother of two great little guys, G (9/28/09) and W (1/20/12)
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We welcomed another warrior in May 2012!!
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I had an inkling I was pregnant but no real reason to think so. I POAS'd last year on the 17th fiercely hoping that I wasn't pregnant. DH and I had only been dating for a year (and we had a rough first 6 months, let me tell you!) and I didn't know how he would respond to the news. I didn't cry when I got my BFP but I was so, so scared. I couldn't figure out how it happened since I was on the pill! and I dreaded sharing the news with our parents. I had only met his parents once and he'd only met my mom during the holidays. It was definitely not a happy time for me but DH (SO at the time) was thrilled. Our parents weren't thrilled and I spent the first trimester bawling and explaining myself repeatedly.
NOW, our parents are so in love with my son and I am just amazed at how great my life is! For an unplanned pregnancy, I sure lucked out! Not only do I have a wonderful, sweet, cute, squishy baby that I love fiercely, I also have an amazing DH who is a great dad! I wouldn't change the past year one bit!
A year ago I was waiting for my period to start. We had taken a 2 month TTC hiatus to let my body heal from the drugs, and we were scheduled for an IUI in January. I would have started the drugs and dr visits as soon as my period started. I was due Jan 8, and I had been like clockwork for over a year. It didn't come and it didn't come and it didn't come. I was in complete and utter denial after 3 years of ART and no joy. I just thought that my PCOS had come back full-force and was whacking out my cycle. My DH finally convinced me to grudgingly POAS (I knew it was going to be BFN). It was a Saturday morning (the 17th), and he was still asleep in bed when I POAS'd. I scared him out of sleep when I started screaming. I sure as hell didn't believe my eyes - I handed him the stick and was like "does that say what I think it does?!?!?!" Of course, he has no idea how to read them. And I was bawling my head off - but after 3 years he wasn't sure how to take the tears, and he had to calm me down enough to tell him that no, it wasn't a BFN.
Lauren, wife to Brian, mom to Ruby (05.10.07) and Sylvie (09.30.09) and baby #3 to arrive in March 2014!