I ended up being transfered to the hospital by ambulance when my midwife arrived and found a foot instead of a head.
I'm still a bit bummed out about how the birth of my last child went down but I'm trying not to focus on it too much.
I wasn't even sure I was in labour when my water broke. I knew something was wrong right away, things just didn't feel right. I stayed on my hands an knees and freaked out. My midwife was 45mins away, I had talked to her earlier to let her know I might be in labour and that I had felt some funny kicking that felt like it was in my bladder. I had gone to my appointment the day before and the baby was head down, I had also gone to the chiropractor a couple of hours before and she felt it was head down as well. I went home to have a bath and my water broke, this has never happened to me, my midwives have always broken it just before I start to push. I was crying to my husband to call the ambulance, my midwives were on the phone trying to calm me down, I was trying to crawl out the door on my own because I felt like no one was listening to me.
Anyway, I hit some place where my contractions totally stopped. My midwives arrived, confirmed a foot. Ambulance was called. An ultrasound confirmed baby was a footling breech. Before that the drs were talking a vaginal delivery. I was surprised at how pro vaginal breech they were. They were really encouraging it. When it was a confirmed footling breech, things changed and I needed a csection. Baby was doing the splits with a one leg through my cervix.
Anyway, I was a wreck the whole time. Baby had a lot of bruising on her lower body and her hip clicks, they think because of her position. She'll most likely get an ultrasound soon. In the meantime we'll double diaper her.
I'm starting to feel a bit sad about how things went down. My kids missed out. I had been hoping for a boy, this is my 5th child, last 4 are all girls. I'm happy about having a girl but a bit sad about this being my last. I'm also a bit sad that even if I'm crazy enough to have one more, they recommend waiting another year, or was it two? And it's a recommended hospital birth. I feel like I've been out of it the last few days, pain killers, recovery, and I've missed out on a lot.
Baby is beautiful and very peaceful. I'll try to get some pics going soon.
Hope your babymoon is wonderful and healing to you both.
- my first ds was part footling part kneeling preemie and i had a lot of sadness about his section for a long time so i understand the feelings you've expressed
be gentle with yourself, and heal well.
mama to callum (april 8,07) and everett (sept 24,09) - blessed to be married to my life's love since '98.
Missing Ashlyn 10/18/06 and Brennan 10/18/10
Jen-loving Bill, mama to Teryn 18, Kalyn 16, Ricky 13, Natalie 5, Angel Zoe '07 and Amelia Rae 22 mos bonus kids (dss) W 14, W 13 NEW grandbaby due 10/10/11
I was very very lucky--my labor progressed so fast that I was fully dilated when the midwives arrived, and they were surprised to find he had moved into a footling position. Like you, I was worried because I felt kicking at my cervix. But I was very lucky that my baby somehow got pointed with both feet down and was in a good position for birth. It all happened so quickly that he was out before I knew it.
If a small detail had gone differently I could have also been rushed to the hospital for a c-section. I'm so sorry you did not get the birth you wanted. Some things are simply out of our control.
I hope you heal quickly and find total peace with the way things turned out. Congrats on a sweet & healthy little girl!
congrats on girl #5 - my mom is one of five girls and they are one happy family, it's so awesome when they all get together, sitting around the table laughing. Sorry your birth experience was so rough, I hope gets better for you soon.
Mommy to Kai 2/03, Caden 1/08, Kara 10/09, 3/21/13, &
Cole 2/3/14 ♡ Happily unmarried to Papa since 2002 ♡
~We may not have it all together ♥ but together we have it all~