hey all. haven't been on much, because I keep alternating between having days of "OMG it HAS to be today, SO many contractions!" to days of "WTF, I can't BELIEVE it didn't happen yesterday/last night."
I even had the baby clothes and blankets in the dryer, and the hot oil for compresses in the crockpot the other day...and then the contrax just kinda stayed in a holding pattern when I got too exhausted to sit up with them
I feel like something is wrong with me--I keep hearing about these women who wake up with contrax in the middle of the night and they just *know* it's labor, and things progress in a timely manner, no big deal. WHY can't this be me???
MY body has to fake me out numerous times until I'm completely effing insane and thinking labor will never REALLY start. My DH made a good point--he thinks maybe stress is what sends me over the edge into real labor, LOL!
So, if nothing happens by Tuesday (40w6d), I have to start driving 1 hr away and paying $85 a pop for NSTs every 3 days. Realistically, I have NO money for even one of these NSTs. All I have is medicaid, and if I show up at a local hospital, all they'll do is admit me for induction since I'm already "sooo late"
Taking castor oil tomorrow morning. Wish me luck ladies.