I felt okay, up and down, but okay until this gd cold has taken a turn for the worst and I'm feverish and just knocked out. How long can this go on? I keep thinking it will be better tomorrow and I'll feel better and in small ways I am. My incision doesn't hurt most of the time and I'm feeling better in that respect than last time. I'm just achey from the sinus infection, which I finally went to the doc about today. They actually gave me antiboitics, which are like harder to get than methadone. Hopefully tomorrow will be better??
DD1 is also a little nightmare, but getting much better. We've had two okay days now and it's 23 and 24 days on now. I think she was really freaked out about my going into the hospital and then coming home, then going back in with Lucy. She keeps saying we have to go to the hospital now, so that's my clue.
Cluster feeding from 4 to 10 is pretty draining too, KWIM? Maybe we're all just exhausted? I keep thinking women aren't meant to live in isolation, doing everything ourselves straight from the birthing-bed!
I'm trying to adjust here, but the devil in my brain just keeps telling me it's not good enough and I'm a failure
How many times can I tell it to go to hell?