Thanks for the support. I was having a really rough night and I really needed the hugs.
I'm not so much "bummed" about having a c-section. I know that's not the "crunchiest" thing to say, but it really doesn't bother me a lot per se. I think it would bother me if I felt it was totally unnecessary, but all of the things I have going on make having a csection more necessary (particularly the previa and the breech). It's sort of a bummer in terms of the fact that I've spent hundreds of dollars taking classes and researching methods to cope with natural childbirth and my intuition tells me its all for nothing. I know, that's really shallow.
My ultrasound for the previa is tomorrow and I'm pretty confident that it will have moved the extra 2mm it needed 6 weeks ago to be cleared for vaginal birth. My OB seems to have a really liberal view of how far away the placenta needs to be from the cervix for vaginal birth, so for that, I am thankful. Other women in my same boat are having to get to 3cm away from their cervix (or Burnindinner who needs 10!!!) and I only need 2cm and I'm almost there.
The thing that gets me is literally THE SAME APPOINTMENT where we pretty much crossed off the previa and cleared me for vaginal birth, I was diagnosed with GD. My OB has been SO great about it and absolutely does not believe this is going to mean that I need more interventions (other than my baby needing to be tested for glucose intolerance after birth), particularly if its just a big baby they're worried about. In and of itself, GD should not MEAN a csection, but I've been noticing that my GD is getting harder and harder to control with food and exercise. If I have to go on insulin or glyburide, my chances for induction are MUCH MUCH MUCH higher because the baby's chance of developing GD related problems later in pregnancy are MUCH higher (as I understand it).
The fact that the baby is breech is pretty much the icing on the cake at this point. I know, I'm a wuss, but I have no desire to birth a breech baby vaginally. This is my first baby which makes me a less likely candidate for successful vaginal breech birth. I'd rather just have the csection. I'm interested in chiropractor work, though. So I'll try that before I give up all hope of this baby coming out of my vagina.
For all the "nosy Seattleites" (he he he) I'm birthing at Swedish-First Hill. I'm so in love with my OBGYN (she's out of Seattle OBGYN practice) and her committment to staying hands off is higher than MY committment to her being hands off. Also, even if I had planned an out of hospital birth, I'd have lost it by now with all my problems. I'm really happy that I'm a hospital like Swedish where they have lots of things available for me to labor with like the jacuzzi tubs in every room, labor balls, and rocking chairs and the 1:1 ratio of laboring mother to nurse. The woman who gave me the tour said that there are lots of nurses who are really excited about natural childbirth and that I should specifically ask for one in labor because they'll all probably jump to help out! I was really surprised to hear that after what a lot of people say about hospitals on this site.
So there, thats the saga of the baby who will not leave via vagina.