So, vet is working up an estimate. She is really wonderful. Young, pregnant herself, super qualified and trying to shave a bunch $$ off of this, because she has old dogs(most likely ones she had as a poor vet student like DH-PhD, not vet, though). DH is going to ask his parents for $$. Something that we NEVER do, so mixed feelings on that, but we realize its necessary. And if not, we just make payments on it until next tax refund.
Thing is that we've rested the dog a ton , he's dropped good weight, we've got him on a grain free diet, but he's 10, and he's just not as spry as he used to be. What has happened before is that he's just torn it a bit, so he can rest and it will heal over. What most likely has happened this time(as it happened before), is that he has torn it COMPLETELY and it makes it so he can't use the leg. And makes me feel like a total meanie if I don't do anything about it. They are going to put him under, see whats and if something needs doing, they'll do it and if not, they will call it off and we'll take it from there. Honestly, I am not exaggerating that we have spent at least $10,000 on this dog, at least for sure once he has this surgery. they should be able to schedule it all soon so we can have it done with and have him drugged up before baby gets here.
DH and I had some GREAT talks tonight. It reminded me how awesomely committed to this birth being better than last time we are. We are both being super honest and real about our fears and insecurities and what we expect from one another. He was insanely apologetic about his behavior today. He feels awful for taking his stress out on me, and reminded me that he knows that the #1 priorities right now are me/baby and DS. Thats what I needed to hear and believe. I honestly haven't seen that behavior from him that I saw today in 3 years. It was so freaky to me.
One positive note from today, I did finally schedule DS's 3rd b-day party and there are like 10 people coming already! All he wants is lots of people and cake, so we're half way there!
Thanks again. I hate this stress at this point! What happened to daily massages and lots of ice cream at this point?!