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Old 10-25-2009, 11:32 AM - Thread Starter
 
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See Update in Post #3- I'm out, chemical pregnancy. Bleeding started at 16DPO, 2 days past expected AF. Please remove me from the Intro Thread. I wish you all the best of luck for a healthy, happy pregnancy and easy, safe birth.

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For some reason, I just can't seem to wrap my mind around the fact I'm pregnant. I keep debating all my symptoms... Are my breasts really sore enough? Full enough? Is that funny abdominal feeling really pregnancy, maybe it's gas? Why am feeling THIS crampy? I had myself all worked up and was SURE this was a chemical pregnancy, so I went out and bought a digital test, popped right up PREGNANT, in way less than the "three minutes" time allotted. I felt more reassured yesterday, but this morning, I'm right back to thinking I'm not really pregnant. A big part of this, I'm sure, is that I had an early loss between my DD and DS and it was a missed chemical pregnancy, so I thought I was 7.5 weeks, when really nothing had developed all along. I don't have a current midwife, but I did email the midwife I know at the Birth Center we want to go to, and ask if she can order Beta's', if not. I'll go back to my old CNM practice from my DD & DS's birth and ask if they will order them. I need some degree of reassurance here! On top if it all, my husband is out of town and the entire state funded organization I work for has been placed on alert that we are very likely to be line-item vetoed by the Governor (I live in Michigan, 'nuff said). So yeah, I'm super stressed. My will to not do Beta's and an early U/s is out the window! I'll do Beta's early next week, and an early u/s at 7 or so weeks, for sure. Otherwise, I'm never going to relax!! I forgot about all this stress of early pregnancy!!

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I can understand and relate even on some levels. I'm not feeling terribly pregnant and I have a 7 wk loss in my past as well that my mind keeps replaying.

I honestly don't believe we are supposed to harbor so much stress over it though, and I'm really sorry you're feeling it!!! I'd give you a big hug if I could.

Every time I feel a twinge or use the bathroom, etc. I have to BATTLE my thoughts into remembering I am BLESSED with this baby, and this blessing will STAY. I believe I'm going to hold this blessing in my arms next summer, and change it's diapers and send it off to college!!!

Those types of thoughts are what my mind, my heart and even my body need to hear, and I'm even saying it out loud because I believe there is power in the spoken word. (hope you don't think that's hokey, lol!)

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers too, if it would help you at all. And I really want to encourage you to take a deep breath when the worry starts to creep in, your baby is FINE and doesn't need mama distracted by stress!!! Your baby needs a happy mama.

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Old 10-25-2009, 01:32 PM - Thread Starter
 
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Well, I'm out... I started cramping and bleeding very heavily shortly after I wrote the original post. I was 16 DPO, two days past expected AF. Chemical pregnancy as I had feared. This is my second confirmed loss, plus one suspected chemical pregnancy prior to DD's.

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Oh, mama, I'm so sorry. I will take care of the intro thread. You take care of yourself.

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I'm so sorry! I'll be thinking of you.

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I'm so sorry.

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I'm SO sorry.

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I'm so sorry. :

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Oh no! I'm so sorry, mama.

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I'm sorry for your loss

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So sorry for your loss

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s I am so sorry for your loss

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