ahem - vent ahead
I have been trying not to read here too much because all the births are making me jealous
I have my 3rd c/s scheduled for the 23rd. Both other births were planned hb transferred and ending in c/s. they were 12 lbs and 12 lbs 2oz. I gave up this time and decided instead of paying thousands out of pocket for a hb mw and then also paying for a c/s i would just go ahead and schedule. Both times i only got to 4cm and the last time i was in labor over 40 hours.
I am only 5ft tall so these huge babies look even bigger in me since they have no where to go. I am 38 weeks and measuring 52.
Every.single.person asks if it is twins. This is how all the convos start.
The person stares at my belly and asks when i am due. I say in a week, 2 weeks etc (this has been going on for over a month now). They then automatically say "TWINS!" I say "nope just one big baby." Sometimes it ends here but more then half the time i get "ohh, GD huh?" To which i get a bit snippy and say "no - not even close - have never had it - 3rd big baby the other ones were 12 pounds."
I am sore, it hurts to have this big of a baby in me. My right hip is out of place, my pubic bone is out of place and everything hurts. If i get it adjusted at the Chiro it feels better for a few hours and then the beast baby pushes it out of place again.
I am sad every time i have a ctx because i know i am getting cut and it is doing me no good. I dont want a c/s - it is a huge struggle for me to keep from breaking down every time i think about it. For me cs is terrifying and the recovery is awful.
I just want to throttle everyone who comments. I know most people arent trying to be annoying but i swear i wish i could stay home for the next 9 days to avoid talking to anyone because i am not fit for public consumption.
If you read this far - thanks
Feel free to add your vent as well so i dont feel like such an ogre.