Hello APGoddess, nice to get an update from you!
I hear you on the nerves of not making it on time. I wonder if your previous crampy labours had some regularity to them, so even if they were not strong and obvious contractions, they had some sort of regular rhythm that might serve as a clue?
Given how fast your births are, you can't help it if you don't arrive in time to have 4 hrs of abx.
Can your hcp give you an IV to insert at home and wear on the way to the hospital when you're in labour? Just wondering.
I see you're homeschooling and think you must not have a lot of time to yourself in this past while as your emotions are all over the place. Do you have little chance to cocoon and turn within or pamper yourself some?
I hope you get a chance to have a moment's peace and center yourself a little bit, Mama.