yep..I've had a few mini meltdowns the last few days. I also struggle with the "am I a good mother" thoughts. Always have. Not having had a parental figure growing up that was in any way a good example, I have to make it all up as I go along, with some help from some fave authors and mags.
Having three is a real hard transition..I always feel like someone is being completely neglected. I felt so horrible the other day when I realized my 3 yo ds had been asking me to read the same book to him for several days and I hadn't yet.
My oldest ds, 7 yo...is doing well, but I'm scared to start homeschooling this year...I'm guessing we're going to start looking like radical unschoolers around here. lol. Oh well!
expat: my kiddos are bickering a lot too, but mostly our 3 yo is taking it out on us! He throws diapers and burp clothes out of my reach and basically has been "a real pill" as his nana would say. I feel like crying a lot because when I think about giving my kids, my house, my yard, my cat (I did have a cat at one time, I'm sure of it.
), my husband, homeschooling, friends....what did I miss, oh yeah myself! the energy that it all needs everyday...I want to crawl in my bathtub and cry.
So sorry everyone is having comments from the inlaws, mine are great but there are a few family members that irk me. My BIL is the main one, I'm always feeding or parenting my kids wrong in his eyes, but the bad thing is he doesn't lecture he just makes a joke like my family is absurd. That makes me more mad. And then my husband has an aunt who I avoid like the plague, I had to see her once last week and her comment when I started NIP was "you know they make these covers you could wear over yourself in public?" I almost said, "yeah? didn't know the Taliban controlled our country?" But I didn't of course.
I'm just sassy like that sometimes.
Anyway...nursing is getting loads better, still a lot of letdown but dd is getting the hang of it. Except at night, can't lay down and nurse without it coming out her nose and choking her. What is with that? I never had that with my boys and I thought it would be better as she got bigger?