So I've been working my wahm job for a little while now, and I can take baby boy with me when I have to go to meetings or stop in after hours and bring him along when I have to do office work.
Now tomorrow is my first night back at my wohm job, and I DO NOT feel very good about it. It's a three hour stretch, but with driving and cleaning up after class, closer to 3.5 or 4 hrs.
I haven't left my little one ever at all yet.
I have a bottle pumped in the freezer, but I don't want him to have a bottle!
I'm thinking about bringing him in the sleepy wrap---my boss won't be there for the first class, and he normally just conks out and sleeps the whole time he's in the wrap or wakes up and nurses briefly and then conks back out.
But what if he's strangely hugely fussy or has one of his massive pukes everywhere or my students are horrified by us breastfeeding? I mean, they're art people who presumably are okay with the nude figure, and I think they'd just go gah gah and think he's adorable (which he is, of course
) but IDK there's really no way of knowing.
Plan B is have dh and dd hang out at the school field playing ball or whatever right across the alleyway and then bring him to me if he starts freaking out and I can nurse him then.
Plan C is leave him home w/ dh and the bottle.
AAAAAHHHHH! I wish I hadn't said I'd be available, but I love teaching the class, and at 9mo pg, I didn't know that I'd feel so unhappy about leaving him for those three hours
tho I never left dd with anyone until she was around 6mo.
Less than 24 hrs away; I'm totally unprepared and haven't decided what we'll do . . .