I have a no weigh policy! So I am no sure how much I have lost/ need to loose. We don't have a scale...but I weighed myself at my last midwifery apt. I had about 20 lbs to loose to get back to my prepregnancy weight of 135 lbs. That was 5 weeks ago and I am getting curious.
Physically, I feel heavier and more uncomfortable than I would like. I don't like the way I look in photographs (fat) unless I get one of those lovely perfect angle shots!! Otherwise I am surprised by how big I look, for me.
Clothing, so frustrating. I am depressed every time I look at my maternity pants. I don't want to wear them!! the belly bands are too big and the waist is falling off my hips so they don't fit. But neither do the prepregnancy pants...unless I wear the two pairs of pants I had for the in between matpants-regular pants from last pregnancy. I went shopping but the outdoors shops tend to have S, M, L sizing....and the L is too tight...and I can never find clothes I like in the malls, and I also don't want to spend a fortune on clothes that won't (I hope) fit in 6 months.
Having 2 kids in 2 years means that I've been a yoyo in the clothing department for the last 3 years and it seems none of my clothes fits right ever! And then when it does I grow out of it 3 months later. rant over.
Aside from the weight, there are the stretch marks and the, uhm, floppyness.
As for the stretch marks...they are old and from my first pregnancy so they look a whole lot better than my first postpartum time. They are not bright red and don't feel as deep, and I've had 2.5 years to get used to them. So that's good. I still don't like the way they feel though. And I worry about my them showing if my clothing shifts...so not super comfortable for me. But I try to be kind to myself about them.
I am worried about the floppiness. I was softer last time too, but, the whole muffin top thing is getting to me this time. I just don't know what to wear! Clothing cuts in to the softness and it just feels all wrong.
I'm sure I'll figure it out in time, when I get back into shape. But really, whatever size I am, I just want to be comfortable!
Also, the interesting thing I've noticed, is that when I see other mamas with their babies, most of them have that soft round belly still. And, I have this adoration for it. It tells me that they have just performed an amazing thing and are still in the fourth trimester and they seem to radiate a life giving glow. So, I try to have that adoration for myself and bask in the afterglow of child birth. 9 months on, 9 months off.