You know, I had my appt last Thursday wtih my midwife and she said I could have my ultra sound at any point now. I feel like I should wait until at least 20 weeks, why go through all the trouble to have it not be quite far along to notice anything? I really dont' want to know, but I know dp is chomping at the bit.
The house we moved into is so rediculously big, it takes me an hour to just tackle the floors. I need to take the big rug in the living room to the laundry mat to be cleaned (dog and boys and partner make the cotton rug a mess, but better the rug than the carpet), and fold a bunch of laundry, get 8 packs of seeds in seed starting pots and potatoes in a dark corner to set, what else? Oh, the bikes need deep cleaned now that it's getting warm, which means sitting out in the driveway and scrubbing down two mountain bikes and a townie, chains scrubbed with toothbrush and all. It seems evertime I get to the list, I get tired and take a nap. Maybe the idea of list is to exhusting!
I've started feeling the guilt of not working while dp is working from 7-5 almost daily. He wakes up and I feel I should be getting up and making coffee, etc., but he keeps saying I should sleep in, take it easy, not worry about it, etc. So I feel bad when I get tired and can't seem to get much done, I feel like I should be working just as much as he is. Did anyone else stop working when you found out? How do you deal with your day?
Nikki~ Dp is also looking at taking a job right after the baby is born in Southern Oregon. It would only be about 6 months, but it makes me not want to get things like a swing, stroller, basically anything that we would have to move. By know I would be looking for a changing table, etc, but feel so up in the air with knowing I won't be able to help move all the stuff with a new baby.
Aidan 8/11/99 Bryn 9/7/04 Jardin is here! 8/23/10 ~Kindness is My Religion~ Dalai Lama